“Thoughts – 14”

Posted by Da Absentee on November 28, 2012

Time is money
time is love
time is worry

Time is something you can’t hold
warning signals
frozen convection
lost in depression

Sliding waves
mental concave
management misbehave

Tall and stiff used to meditate
medicated fade
lemonade in hot shade

Why straight and narrow
when you want curves & wide open graves

*****

I started off wanting to dissect time and apply it differently. Then it changed into the mood I was feeling with choices I had to make.

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“A Rush”

Posted by Da Absentee on November 18, 2012

You have no idea
how I experience a rush
from the scent of your touch
apparent to me
I`m not getting enough
blood and testosterone
sprinting to heighten the blush
I submerge into the entrance of your bodily soul
encountering tingling toes
face hot; throat on fire
heart fills; veins dilate
chest implode; loins burn ablaze
the devils’ own fire
you become, speak, see, and hear
the moment of explode
where your being erodes
I feel a rush
as you try to react on the impulse
“flight or fight”
I appreciate your distortion
would participate for half the night
give a verb
make “silence” an action word
as volcanoes erupts
and magma runs
I enjoy…
grab a taste of your sun
as you thrash and wither
rock and bend
seeing the sweet agony
living sweet agony
I can`t pretend…
you having your moment
makes me want to do it…
all over again…

*****

I have always had a soft side for sharing energy. This has always been a side of me that I really enjoyplaying with. In my writing, this side is always real.

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“Confines”

Posted by Da Absentee on November 10, 2012

Travel by
travel pass

travel fast

spewing fumes, oil and gas
tons of metal
plastic and glass

each one sharing
but individually

on its own path

I should be glad
one less notion to bother me
taking one

the choice of one
would pick and choose opportunity

apply to life

vibrant chrome, different colors and shapes

to dream

adore, ride

praise on

somewhere else
I should be

distance…

travels could take me

I can hear the roar of the day
the temp of the dawn
filled with cold blood
pig and cow skin
to bash upon

Self renaissance
is the only mission
I begin to fathom

strong-willed
so i`m up and at dem

stubborn
so radiation
is the only thing
certain to change
gray matter atoms

in motion

staying in motion

but idle

robotic arm

orbit to a set circle

I’m set to boundaries

set to a certain me

using escapes to help refine…

redefine me
using the words

to illustrate the galaxy

fluency

data and info process

combine make up the

mundane of me

checks & balances

praying my present

doesn’t overcome me…

*****

Somewhere in this clutter I call my life I hope to find what I’m searching and fighting for. Locked in my head yet I’m looking for the escape of reality. I am not dreaming; I am attempting to live…

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“Behind Your Eyes”

Posted by Da Absentee on November 5, 2012

someday i’ll realise
whats behind those eyes
I’m hearing but not listening
the waves are deafening
the torment of the banshee keeps me separating
I am thinly skating
crazed to adhere
I can only picture me
somewhere else but here

when you speak
I can’t comprehend what I hear
I try to look into your heart
all I see is heat
all I see is hurt
all I see is pain
a dark portal
blank parchment
I see blood run behind those eyes
after the attack of me
you would have me feel as you feel
tie me up and batter my heels
empathy and desperation shared
fuck with my head
drive me to the brink of insane
wanting me to yell your name
pleading for forgiveness
expose my heart from my breast
vegetable fry me to death

played one to many games
snared one to many jeers
you wanted to be feared
that way a guard would always be up
behind those eyes
you hate my guts
I see bruises, open cuts a slither and grimace of…
” I’ve had enough “

I take your silent shivering
as restraint from acting out your emotions
the pacing and cussing below your breath
an act of coping with the stress
I have taken everything from behind those eyes…

Even I look around and asks whats left?…

*****

All relationships have their ups and downs. Knowing that you cause someone you love pain is always upsetting (on purpose or not). Dealing with emotions and temperaments is to say the least “not an easy task”. Admitting or knowing your wrong sometimes helps with the healing process, but it doesn’t make it any better.

As Always…

Stay Positive!