“Thoughts – 28”


There is remorse
in having to admit
The kinks in your armor
Any sign of weakness
Spilling of your soul
Something hurtful to confess
A spot of soft flesh.

Putting anything on the line
Out in the open
There are riddles
That should be left unspoken
Examples of not being

All you can be
How can you live with not being you
Truly…

Another one for the pile
Of interrogation
On the subject of…

“Who should I be?..”
© Da Absentee 2015
As Always…
Stay Positive!IMG_0244

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“Haven’t Succeeded”


I can’t talk to you…

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Not for not wanting to talk to you 
Not for wanting to ignore you
It’s because of how much I have disappointed you.

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What can I say that would make up…
the heartache 
The headache… 
I caused. 

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I believe 
I deserve your love 
I haven’t shown you 
I deserve it.  

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what can I do to show you …
I know how to love you right
I’m sorry…

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I know this has not been easy. 
The stress. 
The ups and downs. 
Worrying about the bills 
Worrying about this life
worrying about me. 
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asking me to spend time with you 
I haven’t.
Why 
I really don’t know why. 
I try and plan. Then something always comes up. 

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Am I making excuses 
but this life…
it just is…
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you deserve more than something small. 
can’t even give you that. 
Some grand gesture 
You don’t …
We don’t need all of that
I just want it to be sincere
Truth
Simple

I thought I could be the man you needed. 

It’s all in that last line…
Even though its just that…

I haven’t succeeded…
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© Da Absentee 2015

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As Always…

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Stay Positive!