Getting Nowhere


-unknown author-

On being a mother;

i shelter and protect, put there needs first

i lose myself and i lose respect.

this is how i became me

i am alone

so where has it gotten me

On being a wife

i gave him all of my life

i am a shadow of my former self

and he dares to tell me

i am not myself

this is how i became me

i am support

but where has it gotten me

On being a friend

i encourage and share my secrets with them

i lose trust and they unbalance my zen

and they say i act like

i am better than them

this is how i became me

i am therapist

but where has it gotten me

On being a co-worker

i work hard and play for the team

i get stepped on and passed over

i am depressed and never listened to

this is how i became me

i am angry

but where has it gotten me

On being me

I give the world a part of me

but i am shunned

and questioned, never given a second look

yet i give life, i give love

i think i am the lady, i am suppose to be

quiet, strong and forgiving

but with all this

this is how i became me

i am an unhappy me

but where has it gotten me?

©️Da Absentee 2011

“Perspective Change”

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As Always…

Stay Positive!!

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“Levels”


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Knock, knock knocking
faint
can you hear it
echoes
because its hollow inside
empty and not holding
like a kite which glides

knock, knock knocking
mellow
it permeates
the fleshy eardrum skin
can you hear the beat from within
adhesive to bass and strings

knock, knock knocking…
Normal
like dancing to speech
it is reserved
but always in reach
I am listening
I am your student
please teach

knock, knock knocking
loud
I need you to get here
excuses at this point
is nothing I want to hear
I know you know better
so do so with care

knock, knock knocking
screaming
when I see you
your dead
you hear…

© Da Absentee 2011

 

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“Exhale”


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I`ve been waiting and wanting
for u to engage me
i`ve waited and used control
the heat causes me to perspire

But time wont let me exhale
it goes without fail
u know I need u close
to keep it up

I need it I want it
I can’t hold it anymore
I need your touch
to exhale like before

© Dual Perspective 2011

As Always…
Stay Positive!

“Promises”


rings

I to you
plans to unfold successfully
stability never-ending
infinite as mathematics
traceable with repeat-ability
someone to confide
dreams, secrets, aspirations
even appreciate your dark-side
understand who you are
inside
your judge not bound
by law or regulation

I to you
stand and stick
by you
there to our end
together as shadows…
complementing instruments
an ensemble…
friends

I promise now
promised then
if it comes down to it
ever forgotten
i`ll remind
and promise it
again…

© Da Absentee 2011

As Always…
Stay Positive!

“Tell You Why…”


What has happen since the beginning…
whatever it is
it’s different
now and then; back then;
all I wanted was more “intense” 
put anyone on the floor
feel you from a thousand miles away
to pick up the phone to say”I can hear when you thinking of me”

6th sense love
have it now…
yet

can’t find the rainbow;
can’t touch the pot of gold …Description changing

about to unfold,
become undone.
looking at it…
I “told” myself you were the one.I didn’t want to be fake,

so I threw my heart in & gave it my all
now i`m so engrossed…
I don’t, I know, I can’t fall…
For everyone’s sake.
I hold and support everything…
Who am I
degrade the work & blessings given to me…
my family?I have let it be known…

I don’t want to continue this.
Be a part of this life we have created…
I can’t tell you why…Why you love me so much;

I know you do…
I have transformed your being.
Even if you didn’t tell me
I knew
I`ve loved you how every woman needs
would want to be loved.
Turned your whole panoramic view around,
encouraged,
bared more than asked of me.I can’t tell you why?

If I want to be me…

Because nowadays
when I think of me
I don’t like me
matter of fact
I’m not even me
caught myself being fake to me
Can you tell me why?
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© Da Absentee 2011
As Always…
Stay Positive!

“Encourage”


Attempt your goals like birds at flight
with the absence of light
tunnels can come to scatter…

Everything becomes black
becomes one
no walls , no fraction
use knowledge as a candle.

Become the wick that burns through
thinking the thoughts  that bring light to you
someone is  always saying something
establish strength, flaws and foes
be the rising sun
make the cock-crow.

Cultivate
for what you reap you sow
all things need time to grow
differentiate
so you can spot a change in flow
re-iterate
do all the good things once more
repeat positive outcomes like before…

© Da Absentee 2011

*****

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“Mindless Reaching…”


Thoughts revolving
attempt at problem solving
constant revolution
to bring about
solution
drift with confusion
relations, figures and facts
odds & ends
a way to always back track
foreshadow & what could have been
stitches in time
stitches in seams
disappointment with enlightenment
north flowing streams
forgotten things
dangles
from unattached strings…

© Da Absentee 2011

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Looking deep inside to see what I can find…

As Always…

Stay Positive!