“Thoughts – 21”

Posted by Da Absentee on September 14, 2014

I dont know when i hit rock bottom
but i know as the days go
it seems that i hit it more often
that pit in my stomach
the clog of my throat
the blood pressure
passing through my heart
the lost of…
feels like its ready to explode
out my chest
talking about grasping
Talking about suppressing
i find my therapy
stressing
unrelenting
depressing,
anxiety fleshing a quandary
killing myself with prying
i dont even know if i`m dying
anger is next
one of the feelings i rarely get
i never let alot take me there
a duck in water
every and all things
need to run off my back
cant afford any extra weight
the hate
the despair
let it all wash me off
displace and disappear
sidenote
I enjoy the dry air up here
to bad its so thin
no traveling
it cant take me somewhere
i’m trying to get far away
From this place that leads to nowhere…

“Who Are You Really?”

Posted by Da Absentee on April 20, 2014

Your life is not suppose to be this hard
really…
who said it was supposed to be easy.
who said everything is going to go as planned
matter of fact!
who told you, you were going to get everything you want.
who are you to ask for more than you need
what work have you put in?
where have you paid your dues
what makes you think you can fill someone else shoes.

I can go on & on about people who feel entitled to things in life. this is my brief rant.

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“I Wish…”

Posted by Da Absentee on December 5, 2013

I wish we all had more than enough
More than material wealth
I wish we could take care of ourselves
With so much to lose and so much to gain
cant we all be friends
Wish i could talk to my fallen again
I wish i didnt fit a profile
I wish the system would stop with the lies
I live in the land of the free
but when it comes to air…
It feels like they tryna take it away from me…
I wish to Silence all the tears
Dry all the cries
I wish we could try.
Love each other And kiss the hate goodbye…

As always…

Stay Positive!

“Thinking Clearly Ahead…”

Posted by Da Absentee on September 5, 2013

I close my eyes…
I breathe out…
I clear my thoughts…
Or at least I think I do.

Tormenting thoughts…
Creep slow.
I feel them gearing to get the best of me…

I play music in my background…
Undertaking to drain the devilish deducing…
They are beckoning me…
So loudly calling me…

Testing me…
Taunting me to lose my cool.
To yell and scream back at the bullshit…
The obstacles and adversaries.

How? Why?
Questions I ask on a daily regimen…
Is it worth the object which I pretend.
I need an ear…
I hope someone can lend…

I laugh at how.
I only take up this pen…
When I feel so close to reaching my rope’s end.

I focus…
I am in an attempt to leave all the negative…
Here on this page…

Take this life built cage…

To transform it into a catapulting stage…

*****

A moment of feeling irate about this life…

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“Hara”

Posted by Da Absentee on August 6, 2013

Deep down stored erupting energy; where I could find a new me.

Support with elasticity; where I can carry me.

Strength unseen; where I can astound me.

If I can use this part of me…

I can find my new me…

*****

Hara (Japanese: stomach) is a Japanese martial arts term. Also used in Traditional Chinese medicine, for the “center of being”. In many martial arts, extension from this centre has become a common concept. There are several breathing exercises in traditional Japanese martial arts where attention is always kept on hara.