“Thoughts – 28”

Posted by Da Absentee on December 15, 2015

There is remorse
in having to admit
The kinks in your armor
Any sign of weakness
Spilling of your soul
Something hurtful to confess
A spot of soft flesh.

Putting anything on the line
Out in the open
There are riddles
That should be left unspoken
Examples of not being

All you can be
How can you live with not being you
Truly…

Another one for the pile
Of interrogation
On the subject of…

“Who should I be?..”
© Da Absentee 2015
As Always…
Stay Positive!

“Haven’t Succeeded”

Posted by Da Absentee on December 15, 2015

I can’t talk to you…

Not for not wanting to talk to you
Not for wanting to ignore you
It’s because of how much I have disappointed you.

.
What can I say that would make up…
the heartache
The headache…
I caused.

I believe
I deserve your love
I haven’t shown you
I deserve it.

.
what can I do to show you …
I know how to love you right
I’m sorry…

I know this has not been easy.
The stress.
The ups and downs.
Worrying about the bills
Worrying about this life
worrying about me.
.

asking me to spend time with you
I haven’t.
Why
I really don’t know why.
I try and plan. Then something always comes up.

Am I making excuses
but this life…
it just is…
.
you deserve more than something small.
can’t even give you that.
Some grand gesture
You don’t …
We don’t need all of that
I just want it to be sincere
Truth
Simple

I thought I could be the man you needed.

It’s all in that last line…
Even though its just that…

I haven’t succeeded…
.

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“Thoughts – 27”

Posted by Da Absentee on November 27, 2015

Everytime

It shouldnt work that way

It shouldnt work this way

Still here but bitter

Here with mine

Live with mine

Everytime

Im human

Make good ones make bad ones

Pulled myself thru my self made hell

Pieces placed together

Bond or gel

Everytime.

Im trying to figure this life out

Figure what im about…

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“Realization”

Posted by Da Absentee on November 21, 2015

What do i need

To remember who i am

my past has shown me a future

i wish to strive for

unearth

finding myself in a process

I’m torn

its not settling right

good / evil

my innards not properly lit

too many shadows

too many unfinished walls

concrete pits

shaky foundation

unstable

in one too many directions

I’m lost in it

the unsettling

it doesnt sit right

haunted by my life

I can tell its gone

I know

I didn’t love it right

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“She’s Beautiful” Update

Posted by Da Absentee on November 4, 2015

IN MY EMAIL TODAY!!

One of my followers dropped me a special gift. She recorded and sent me a copy of her version of “She’s Beautiful”

I am so honored and humbled by her showing her support. Proud; to feel that I have inspired someone with my words. Thanks Smitten!

You can connect and follow Smitten on her >> Blog Smitten’s Blog is 100% personal sharing her life as she sees fit. You are forewarned that she can have explicit material but it is totally worth your wild to be drawn into and share in her world.

So join me by giving her a SHOUTOUT!! On a job well done! You can listen to Smitten’s rendition in the player below!…

As Always…
Stay Positive!