Getting Nowhere


-unknown author-

On being a mother;

i shelter and protect, put there needs first

i lose myself and i lose respect.

this is how i became me

i am alone

so where has it gotten me

On being a wife

i gave him all of my life

i am a shadow of my former self

and he dares to tell me

i am not myself

this is how i became me

i am support

but where has it gotten me

On being a friend

i encourage and share my secrets with them

i lose trust and they unbalance my zen

and they say i act like

i am better than them

this is how i became me

i am therapist

but where has it gotten me

On being a co-worker

i work hard and play for the team

i get stepped on and passed over

i am depressed and never listened to

this is how i became me

i am angry

but where has it gotten me

On being me

I give the world a part of me

but i am shunned

and questioned, never given a second look

yet i give life, i give love

i think i am the lady, i am suppose to be

quiet, strong and forgiving

but with all this

this is how i became me

i am an unhappy me

but where has it gotten me?

©️Da Absentee 2011

“Perspective Change”

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As Always…

Stay Positive!!

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“New to me, New to you”


I will make our story true

Because in some places its a lie

 Trying in the eyes of others. 

Make them see what could have been 

what should have been true

How we work together. 

How i have been hurting you

How we can surpass the end of time. 

Faithful and true; what are the parts of me, that are you….

As snow birds and travelers move about 

allochthonous… misplaced but leaving a mark. 

A plain of discovery. 

Parts that are hurting yet growing me

Is it ok to partake of selective fruit

What blends of pudendal juice

Wanting to be dissected 

Small circle questions 

could he ask

How dare that enter the mind

The world is too big too many choices 

To fill and empty 1 glass

Knowing my mind

Reviewing our time

the past was the last

Open mind open time

Plural or singular you are always mine

I am always yours

My more will come with time

“The Gray”


I believe in the black & white

The ups and downs

But there is always the gray

Everything is never 

Cut and dry 

west and east

Life always brings us to the in-betweens

never live in this area

The place where things ideas and people slip by. 

 The gray is where the time flies

Where everything blends 

Where the secrets start and end 

where you and reality are distant friends 

“I wanted to say something…”


 

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Don’t let this world; or anyone play with your head
That includes you…
Don’t let the world or others; influence how you see yourself
.
Stop shunning yourself;
doubting yourself
no one should love you
more than you love yourself
.
Tossing is uncomfortable
Turning is not the same as change
You are not unreasonable
.
Right now… You are irreplacable
Someone knows your beautiful
Skin color, blemishes, stretch marks and dark spots;
No concern
The thin, thick or in between you
No matter how you look
someone has love to give to you
.
Somewhere
the only thing you would want is love in return
Stop asking yourself
Who would, who could
love me, want me
.
Feel secure in you
Even after months of dedicated work
On being a better you
Do you say to yourself?
“I love you”
.
You are monetary
Rich now; that was unavailable
You are stability
worlds falling apart
Yet your insurance and safety
.
You’re sanctuary
day runs smooth; make this world make sense
Never give you up, know what you have
Comprehend whats worth fighting for
.
You worry about being a mom
Being better than yours
Loving better than yours
Letting your seed know you love her
Dont worry ma…
She knows
.
No one to replace you
Dont think you excel in some areas
And fall in others
you are far beyond that level
.
Just be you
Live with you
Live with this life you made
Its yours after all
.
You are
independent, strong…
.
You can leave a legacy.
Working hard alone is never wrong….
.
(C) Da Absentee 2016
.
As Always…
Stay Positive!

“Evolution”


I see the growth in me

I feel the growth in me

I see and feel the need…

to keep this growth with me
life moves at such a pace 

Its frigid yet fast paced

Depressing and succession based

Upsets with love and lusts

Entombed; yet flower laced
Im doing things different

Really feeling the time difference

Seeing my time different
Living and dying 

same instant, Same movement

Expansion with confinement

Responsibilities bring duress

Animation supports transition

From simple to complex…

© Da Absentee 2016
“As Always…. Stay Positive!”