“What I Don’t Know”


The answers to the questions of my world lie within these pages
within these lines, within another time
I can`t answer or find them now
these choice words are just being written
in mass confusion, in a mask of confusion

I lock my heart expeditiously,
I make nothing seen; I don’t leave a mark that would betray me
I see the monsters, see the monster
the one I created… in turn created me
I am what I think… I think to create…

Life is too short
to dwell on
from and through my mistakes
must adapt, must move on
consider new states
these words, these lines
my escape…

 

© Da Absentee 2014

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As Always…

Stay Positive!

Scribbles – 27


change negative
crossover zero
show the future how to live
shine like lighthouses
in the depth of night
work hard on improving whats wrong
by any means
above and proceed
stay positive…
Is the only thing I choose to plant as a seed

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“Encourage”


Attempt your goals like birds at flight
with the absence of light
tunnels can come to scatter…

Everything becomes black
becomes one
no walls , no fraction
use knowledge as a candle.

Become the wick that burns through
thinking the thoughts  that bring light to you
someone is  always saying something
establish strength, flaws and foes
be the rising sun
make the cock-crow.

Cultivate
for what you reap you sow
all things need time to grow
differentiate
so you can spot a change in flow
re-iterate
do all the good things once more
repeat positive outcomes like before…

© Da Absentee 2011

*****

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“My Mother – 1”


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I survey the scene

one like this doesn’t take hours to make

this is dedication and planning

a labor of love that’s too demanding

too fierce

too free

she needs some restriction

because this is crazy…

I told her that she needs to downsize

she just laughed at me

christmas all year

and you’re not a christmas store

the floor like this

this is a hoard

a stash

decorations and bows

wreaths and garlands

curtains and china…

talk about service

she could cater the democrat

and republican conventions

all on the same night

the collection of silverware and plates

enormous…

this can’t be sane

half the time

I never plan on staying for more than 4 nights

its move this

pack this

place this here

did you run the errands

and my tools

they around here somewhere…

she have the house so done up

its more like bound to me

boxes and chairs

mattresses and  don’t you dear forget

the christmas trees

of her own creation

her own application

and methodic fabrication

2 ten foot

2 eight foot

2 six-foot

strategically placed…

decorated and laden

to the T

don’t mess with this woman

when she is in the zone

she is a robot

a drone

if she could

you would marvel at what this almost 70-year-old

could do

on her own

the woman has no fear…

I stand and hate

but admire the clutter I see

how can I just ignore this woman

she has done so much for me

i`m glad she` s my mother

but this unbelievable

sometimes senseless hobby

has to cease…

.

Da Absentee © 2011

*****

I really don’t put people in my family into writing, but sometimes it’s the only thing i can do. She has a problem that no one else wants to call her on. (talking about my siblings) I have told her it’s a waste. No one is going to continue this after she’s gone. It’s time to leave it alone.

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“Thoughts – 20”


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In dark corners
someone abandoned the child
with pain hidden
street cold eyes
getting older
staying high
red shot
closed
but not done crying
lonesome nights
unwanted homes
dreams
money, chrome
loving husband
beautiful home
held by pincers
held by crabs
telling  you
you can’t win
weigh down like slabs
knifes ready
so they back stab
laying in the shadow of street-lights
hiding from night lights

i`m praying you change
make differences
to your life…

© Da Absentee 2012

*****

When all the hurt in your life has come to a head, you feel like your back is against a wall, enemies, situation, and life is doing nothing but holding you down you have no more tears to be shed… This is when I hope you tell yourself… Get up. There are changes to be made. I’m going to stay positive, adapt, and move forward…

As Always…

Stay Positive!

*****

“On Being Family”


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Much to say
being who we are
thick water
sons, daughters
protectors and friends

know how and when
not where it ends
time never separate bonds
no matter
how colorful or rude
it’s who you are

we love for who we are
not what we want each other to be

don’t have to talk
to understand
good plus rough
situations
we don’t need solutions
just an attentive ear

on being family
just know
I am here
thankful to be blessed
by all your years
it would not be the same
without you here

like any occasion
we get together
to celebrate or mourn
it’s the time together
that keeps the heart warm

© Da Absentee 2011

*****

I really don’t write about my family much. Even tho I know I owe them the most for how my brain works and how I view things in my life. If it wasnt for them I would not be me; but in my latter life I distanced myself from them. This is just to say I love them no matter how it may seem. It is not what it looks like.

As Always…

Stay Positive!