“That Feeling”


     That feeling …
     that where do we go from here?
     that how did we get here?
     that how to get back to where we were?

     Feels like you can’t even talk
     can’t even speak
     communication is obsolete
     pull and find yourself a shell.

This is how you stay.
a great communicator
but only with what you have to say.

You push, argue and antagonize
keep each other on guard
never to compromise 
you close your eyes.

 
Try to create and find
wanting escapes
because your trapped in life
also caged in your mind.

 
Using the allure of fantasy
helps keep you sane
holding onto sanity
are you understanding…

 
It’s not the fact that you don’t comprehend
matter of fact you relate
that this is…
what it is…

Just once in your life
you are going to lose a friend 
you can’t even pinpoint the need for separation  feeling.

 
That falling apart
that growing apart
your together
yet traveling apart.

When you hit the dark
that wall
that stifling feeling
that only you are seeing.

You take and hold
affirm and conform
those insults
don`t even chip the others rock hard form.

 
Their emotionless fortress
nothing you throw
really hits its mark anymore
especially when done in negativity.

 
Your comparisons
of trying to make others see their wrong
always go wrong
trying to make them feel small.

Your just weak…
they are strong
this couldn`t happen
for and with you.

 
Lost the long for their touch
still can’t resist their touch
yes you love them this much
mind stays running this much. 

Your done
your confusing
if you focus
you could get this right.

 
But whats the use
you don’t want your nights
or your future
much less a real reason
to get it right…

© Da Absentee 2012

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Well there are a lot of emotions wrapped up in this one. Sometimes we get so lost in the day-to-day that just the little things, after building up can just cause a massive breakdown of your infrastructure. Being married in a relationship and living and trying to cope with this life, really takes a toll on everybody included. The point is never to get to the point of where this piece has taken. Where you have given up and don’t want to struggle, find or continue. You don’t ever want to get to “that feeling”.

As Always…

Stay Positive! 

 
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