“Exhale”

Posted by Da Absentee on April 28, 2014

I`ve been waiting and wanting
for u to engage me
i`ve waited and used control
the heat causes me to perspire

But time wont let me exhale
it goes without fail
u know I need u close
to keep it up

I need it I want it
I can’t hold it anymore
I need your touch
to exhale like before

As Always…
Stay Positive!

“Is It Destined For…”

Posted by Da Absentee on August 16, 2013

just as distant…

as old textbooks and encyclopedias on the shelves

asking… what else?

just to describe myself

finding out inside

is somewhere else…

it’s not the same on the outside…

here with me

I tell myself things

I truly don’t want to hear

don’t want to believe

after broken hearts

anger sparks

hot heads in cold beds

staring at the ceiling

trying to compromise

use these dealings

expressing flaws

drop jaws

wild-eyed and in awe

can this become what it was before?…

is it destined for

an edge; a cliff;

or fall…

*****

This site really is personal; for me anyway. I am no relationship guru. I experience things and then write about it. This is a reflection of one of those down points in a relationship when you question if it is really worth all the headache that it truly causes.

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“For Play, Foreplay, Our Play – 1”

Posted by Da Absentee on June 16, 2013

what we use, for play…
advances foreplay
enhances our play…

stepping-stones,
history with cosmic cyclones

we articulate from bell to smartphones
battles at home
reek love jones

don’t chill
but excite bones
as we converse
over Sauvignon
we traverse
through exotic zones

un-rehearsed
we fall into a calm…
disposition…
while, while in the fade …
slow tunes hitting

I’m a new 90’s
New Mill kinda guy
I’m a
Kells – SWV – Jaheim – Trey – Tank, Dream
Xscape – En Vogue – TLC – Silkk & Shai
Ginuwine & Mint Condition
Guy
Kinda guy

I’m an Old soul
so I don’t talk about wishing
I demand action
and ask for attention
if we are going to sit down
we going have to do it
like a convention

we can talk poetry
but prefer mine
because it calculates the mood
and coexists with the wine
making our time…
timeless time
expand and freeze
fans and ac
mix candles
incense
stagnant breeze
heavy vanilla
cool…
72°

Intellectual passing words
describe intentions of you and me
I’m independent strong…
firm
I’ll commandeer
while you steer
and heave
the dark inclinations
of your inner
erratic enthusiast

*****
Being wrapped up in the love of your partner can be a beautiful thing. It can induce so much emotion and memories that it could last for years…

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“Not Having Enough”

Posted by Da Absentee on April 12, 2013

see how and why the world falls apart ?
all I know, is that I have my “know”
I have my heart, my mind, my spirit
how else am I supposed to get through this life, this instant.

I don’t know what to call what you have
but its all you have
you have twisted it, made it your vice
I acknowledge
you’ve made yourself unable to sleep at night
you can’t and wont let go
because it’s all you have in life
I don’t know how to help you get it right

even if I tell you there is a problem
you say im wrong
if you tell me the problem
and I dare to agree?..
im still wrong
really…
this can’t go on

*****

I am not different or special when it comes to having downtimes or upsets in life. When we make the commitment to share this life with another person we sometimes have fights. We have confrontations. This is a representation of what one of those unpleasant but real conversations anyone in long relationships will have. When one disagrees with the other or you find yourself in a cycle that’s needs to be broken. Well I have been there. I have written about it. I’m moving on…

As Always…

Stay Positive!