“For Play, Foreplay, Our Play – 1”


what we use, for play…
advances foreplay
enhances our play…

stepping-stones,
history with cosmic cyclones

we articulate from bell to smartphones
battles at home
reek love jones

don’t chill
but excite bones
as we converse
over Sauvignon
we traverse
through exotic zones

un-rehearsed
we fall into a calm…
disposition…
while, while in the fade …
slow tunes hitting

I’m a new 90’s
New Mill kinda guy
I’m a
Kells – SWV – Jaheim – Trey – Tank, Dream
Xscape – En Vogue – TLC – Silkk & Shai
Ginuwine & Mint Condition
Guy
Kinda guy

I’m an Old soul
so I don’t talk about wishing
I demand action
and ask for attention
if we are going to sit down
we going have to do it
like a convention

we can talk poetry
but prefer mine
because it calculates the mood
and coexists with the wine
making our time…
timeless time
expand and freeze
fans and ac
mix candles
incense
stagnant breeze
heavy vanilla
cool…
72°

Intellectual passing words
describe intentions of you and me
I’m independent strong…
firm
I’ll commandeer
while you steer
and heave
the dark inclinations
of your inner
erratic enthusiast

© Da Absentee 2011

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Being wrapped up in the love of your partner can be a beautiful thing. It can induce so much emotion and memories that it could last for years…

As Always…

Stay Positive!

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“Not Having Enough”


Broken Glass
 
 see how and why the world falls apart ?
all I know, is that I have my “know”
I have my heart, my mind, my spirit
how else am I supposed to get through this life, this instant.
 
I don’t know what to call what you have
but its all you have
you have twisted it, made it your vice
I acknowledge
you’ve made yourself unable to sleep at night
you can’t and wont let go
because it’s all you have in life
I don’t know how to help you get it right
 
even if I tell you there is a problem
you say im wrong
if you tell me the problem
and I dare to agree?..
im still wrong
really…
this can’t go on
 
© Da Absentee 2012
 
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I am not different or special when it comes to having downtimes or upsets in life. When we make the commitment to share this life with another person we sometimes have fights. We  have confrontations. This is a representation of what one of those unpleasant but real conversations anyone in long relationships will have. When one disagrees with the other or you find yourself in a cycle that’s needs to be broken. Well I have been there. I have written about it.  I’m moving on…
 
As Always…
 
Stay Positive! 
 
 

“Thoughts – 18”


thoughts

Define touch from kiss
heaven to bliss
a metamorphosis

Enveloped in beat, ice cap heat
constant traffic to a good street
you weigh down; beat up
thought my choice words would be enough
I thought we already brought this up
moved on
we already sung this song

but her we go again
down these roads of indecision
I have really nothing more to say
I have said all I wanted to say
as for everything else I could say
i`ll hold my tongue

nothing good anyway
I pray  for rot for decay
every time we talk this way

im done
I just want to see progression
I don’t even know if I would like to speak
try to be discreet
maybe…
jus get up and move my feet

opposite direction
do you even realize
how frustrating this is for me
granted I know your demeanor
was undoubtedly caused by me
but from day one
I have dealt with transparency
like nothing… easily

we both put ourselves out there
we took a path that most wouldnt adhere
is it wrong to doubt even for a little bit
that this was wrong
can’t I fall victim to negative thinking
can I not be human
can I not look at other women 

just so we can focus
can I not have friends
my one and only…

its like you try to take so much from me
somethings are just as special
just as dear to me as you and me
how can you not be first
when everything else has to come after you

I tend to our family everyday
our needs our securities
I have no family without you 
friends in close proximity
but you accuse me
of putting others before you
I really don’t know what to do

this mud of us
I am stuck 
I am suffocated without anyone trying
applying to understand 
 I don’t understand

© Da Absentee 2011

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This should probably be called “Pages from my Diary” but I had said before that the “Thoughts” category would be filled with writings that are really me going through the motions of writing. To write. Sometimes I can’t write the next thing until I write these things that weigh heavy.
 
As Always…
 
Stay Positive!

“One Love Lesson”


part

Off the ground
turn around
lost the sound
it’s coming
needs to be found
something else that ties you back down
have you…

attempted…

continue foundation
tedious
is there escape
connecting of how you choose
depart from situation
absentees call for separation
duration unknown
for your own
on your own
finding…

broken down explanation
in need of thinking confirmation
depression wrapped in elation
foreign conversation
is there something
someone
worth waiting 

still yet
just once known…
you never forget…

 

© Da Absentee 2011

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Not trying to say that I know all about this love thing but. Here I can only share my experience, the way I see it.

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“Part, Spiritual”


From hence and moments after
Goal… Capture…
Quintessence; no matter where it may lead,
Or go

We love each others soul
parts we know… parts we understand;
test of time?
Hardest to obtain, difficulty in explaining.

Out of body – transfigured – heavenly plain

After all defenses are down
all walls broken,

heart and mind…
Equally open…

Time; Trust; Reverence and Comprehending.

That part of me, factually all of me…
Infallible, absolute, uncontaminated; unexaggerated…

Is what I give to you,
this would show how much I love you.

How extensive I want our love to be
this is the part where i`ve given…
and you have…

all of me…

© Da Absentee 2011

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The second installment of a 3 part series . Rooted in the “Fabrics Of Me” theme. It is a reflection of how I think we love people we are romantically involved with. Spiritual, Mental, Physical. My basic interpretations.

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“Part, Mental”


part

We don`t have to touch
but I know it seals the deal;
we forget we don’t need the physical to feel
when…
When we love. We love mentally, whole & fully.

Little details, subtle hints… Stares?

Heart sprints out of nowhere
a slight bump
a slight rub, sharing unseen energy
an accidental brush
does so much.

To excite
we need to feel… project our intentions;
ready to flirt, day, night…
Speak in code.

Be a little rude
be a bit nice, call to make sure your feeling alright
fluff; repeat more than twice
willing to give a piece of… “me”.

Receive love unselfishly
give back willingly
love mentally
then enhance love…
Physically.

© Da Absentee 2010

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Loving someone can go so many ways. It can be expressed in different ways. This is actually 1 of 3 with the same theme… Different ways to love. I chose to react on Mental, Physical & Spiritual. My own brief  interpretations.

As Always…

Stay Positive!