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Thinking…

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These thoughts I have

Everyday.

See different light

Can you compose a scene in light /bright colors

Yet call the finish product “a dark night”?….

These thoughts I had are ever changing.

If i complain “with” facts.

Cant that be called “blaming”?…

These thoughts i wish to have.

Of good times with a smoother path.

Every night.

The drive to get there

Could ultimately cut my “living” in half…

These thoughts; all these thoughts

Hold me down

Conform with gravity

Keep my feet on the ground

Fighter for a rematch…

See you next time around…

©️Da Absentee 2019

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“Silence That Destroys”

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The little things seems to be the only thing that unravel our close knit seams

interrupt and dismantle our dreams

im at fault for my own uphill battle

it takes repetitve times 

to destroy something with a simple rattle

im at fault for my own uphill battle…
I stretch out my arms and remain silent

its killing us;

my silence…

is it right to be this way to detour the fights

I dont look forward to my nights

but I pray for my nights
in my city it barely rains

but when it pours;

it never drains

i stand in a rising puddle soon to be submerged

Im colliding with the action 

im unresponsive to the urge 

we cant communicate without throwing words…

  

As Always… 

Stay Positive!

“Levels”

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Knock, knock knocking
faint
can you hear it
echoes
because its hollow inside
empty and not holding
like a kite which glides

knock, knock knocking
mellow
it permeates
the fleshy eardrum skin
can you hear the beat from within
adhesive to bass and strings

knock, knock knocking…
Normal
like dancing to speech
it is reserved
but always in reach
I am listening
I am your student
please teach

knock, knock knocking
loud
I need you to get here
excuses at this point
is nothing I want to hear
I know you know better
so do so with care

knock, knock knocking
screaming
when I see you
your dead
you hear…

© Da Absentee 2011

 

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“Tell You Why…”

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What has happen since the beginning…
whatever it is
it’s different
now and then; back then;
all I wanted was more “intense” 
put anyone on the floor
feel you from a thousand miles away
to pick up the phone to say”I can hear when you thinking of me”

6th sense love
have it now…
yet

can’t find the rainbow;
can’t touch the pot of gold …Description changing

about to unfold,
become undone.
looking at it…
I “told” myself you were the one.I didn’t want to be fake,

so I threw my heart in & gave it my all
now i`m so engrossed…
I don’t, I know, I can’t fall…
For everyone’s sake.
I hold and support everything…
Who am I
degrade the work & blessings given to me…
my family?I have let it be known…

I don’t want to continue this.
Be a part of this life we have created…
I can’t tell you why…Why you love me so much;

I know you do…
I have transformed your being.
Even if you didn’t tell me
I knew
I`ve loved you how every woman needs
would want to be loved.
Turned your whole panoramic view around,
encouraged,
bared more than asked of me.I can’t tell you why?

If I want to be me…

Because nowadays
when I think of me
I don’t like me
matter of fact
I’m not even me
caught myself being fake to me
Can you tell me why?
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© Da Absentee 2011
As Always…
Stay Positive!

“Point Break”

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When did you arrive?
How did you arrive?
Did you boil?
Did you bubble up inside?
 
When is it enough?
How is it enough ?
Were you in denial?
Did it seem fake?
 
When did you learn?
How did you learn ?
Making the same mistakes…
Its become a choice.
 
Are you not the least concerned?
You say you hurt;
yet forward looks a lot like reverse.
You`ve been victimized…
By love and her cohorts.
 
So when is it quits?
When do you stop putting up with the shit?
When do you react for you?
take away its control
and get back to what’s best for you…
 
The act of only loving you….
© Da Absentee 2012
 
Sometimes we have to shake off the negative people and things in our lives. Sometimes we have to ask  “when is enough, enough?” When will we stop hurting ourselves to possibly make the negative better? How about making yourself better?
 
As Always…
 
Stay Positive!