“Thoughts – 19”


thoughts

I hate to hear them cry
how far we`ve come
how hard we`ve tried
can’t do for self
really ?
you need someone else
to tell you how your suppose to feel inside
many abuse the system
plus abused by the system
have a voice and wont use it
have life and refuse it
refuse to live
refuse to do their part
I don’t appreciate the lack of heart
picture not having
and still knowing worse
privilege is a blessing
but also curse
someone always takes your view
and applies it in reverse

© Da Absentee 2012

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Going through a phase of not knowing what to write but wanting to write. Theses thoughts came out. It’s about those people in this world who seem to always have a problem that they themselves never know how to fix but everyone else should fix it for them.

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“Before You Were Lost”


I see you
blending in
that your forgotten
searching for something
maybe someone
going about unseen
your unclean
digging through garbage
mimicking the scene

I see you
in the middle of the eve
trying to sleep
tattered rags; battered  bags
against dirty slabs
concrete
Your home a bask
in the beauty of the street
dazed by the percussion
the beat the passerby`s
the important the obsolete

I ponder how did you get here
how did you get so far away from there
is there not someone
some how for you to be else where.

From the bottom of my heart
I wish you could get back there…

© Da Absentee 2012

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For some reason when I was on the bus on my way to work, going through downtown. I happened to see 4 homeless men on my bus ride. This is the train of thought that came to mind after seeing their conditions. Its made up of actual visuals and the attempt to understand how exactly did they get where they were. I.E. on the street and alone. I don’t know if it was situation, or karma or life. I just know I wish them better.

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“Our Common State”


earth

walk through a garden
soil, un-tilled, dry and coarse
leaves wilted and hardened
rocks aside and water given
problem with progression
moving and giving some things not worth repeating

valley low to mountain high
flags raised, alarms sound
obtain tactics to scare
whats wrong
from sky to sand we walk on

life source depleting
under privileged not eating
wives and kids abused… beaten
no mercy given

honestly
society has no reason to hire me
oppression tires me
depressing
minds chopped and screwed

myself …
thankful for being so blessed
putting my life’s soul to the test
I don’t have everything
but im up again going for the rest
we deserve what we work for and get

young become parents
so there is faulty foundation
tell me
dimensions for the next generation
what are they rendered and grown out from
abortions, high murder rate,
economic downfall, high interest rates
not to mention all this hate
this is the worst … developing some of the hardest things to break

looking for love
so it can vibrate,
we meditate
trying to elevate
issues we must solve, resolve and dissolve
if we are ever to reach our proper place

© Da Absentee 2012

*****

Just thinking of the world we live in and how or what can I do to help change it. Change it for the better. After all we call it “home” we should attempt to clean and fix it up.

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“One Look At Things”


Envision subtleties
little differences 
I own only my zone of comfort
own my solitude
surrounded by average reason
average region
collision appealing
conflict about hitting the ceiling
time and life reeling
surreal
it must be a movie
fiction and make-believe
real life cant be so condemning
unsatisfying
the race we run
to which we are dying
even less gratifying
gravity is a hinderance
souls pass with deliverance
we pray the young do better
we write letters
share thoughts
we live for us
but lost our hearts
there is no more smiles
no more thanks
no more “how do you do”
we have become
gotten rude
everything seems to want to tell us
what to do
how to live 
how to give
how to respond
“we” are  eventually what`s wrong 
we live for the future
but we need the past to stand on
roots are gone
we don`t acknowledge
don`t accept
losing self-respect
tossing it away
for whats next
we are flimsy in comparison
to previous generations
someone will tell me I am mistaken
but these are my thoughts
so I am and will not be easily…
shaken…

© Da Absentee 2012

*****

As  we get older we tend to think of things in certain ways.  What they once were, what they are, and what they could be. This is a nod to getting older and comparing the differences in the modern world as we know it. As parents wanting more for our kids. Seeing that activities that were an everyday occurrence have now been deemed “recreation”. To me it seems to carry a negative connotation.  Knowing that we as people have become a weaker species than our elders before us. Morals and decency are a luxury. Common courtesy is a thing of the past. The word “privacy” is followed by question marks..??? Last but not least the way “someone or something or some entity” seems to want to stuff their belief, ideals and thoughts down our throats, like we cant figure out anything for ourselves. I don’t want or need any hand-holding. Everyone before us had their own learning experiences. These things are a part of life. We should have the right to enjoy or hate them and grow from and through them…

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“Confines”


Travel by
travel pass
travel fast
spewing fumes, oil and gas
tons of metal
plastic and glass
each one sharing
but individually
on its own path
I should be glad
one less notion to bother me
taking one
the choice of one
would pick and choose opportunity
apply to life
vibrant chrome, different colors and shapes
to dream
adore, ride
praise on
somewhere else
I should be
distance…
travels could take me
I can hear the roar of the day
the temp of the dawn
filled with cold blood
pig and cow skin
to bash upon
Self renaissance
is the only mission
I begin to fathom
strong-willed
so i`m up and at dem
stubborn
so radiation
is the only thing
certain to change
gray matter atoms
in motion
staying in motion
but idle
robotic arm
orbit to a set circle
I’m set to boundaries
set to a certain me
using escapes to help refine…
redefine me
using the words
to illustrate the galaxy
fluency
data and info process
combine make up the
mundane of me
checks & balances
praying my present
doesn’t overcome me…
© Da Absentee 2011
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Somewhere in this clutter I call my life I hope to find what I’m searching and fighting for. Locked in my head yet I’m looking for the escape of reality. I am not dreaming; I am attempting to live…
As Always…
Stay Positive!