“Lost”


 Streetlight

Wanting to be better
that’s why we see people like this
hash out emotions rarely spoken
hash out feelings off base from token
lost…
I wish I  was joking
I see walls being broken
using sleep to escape depression
using work to get out aggression
cautious walking in my “state of mind” library section
how did I end up here…
little recollection
lost in moments of self inspection
lost in the instances
lost in the seconds
is there any detection
searching for a glimpse of connection
lost in this warm Colorado breeze
lost in its seclusion
lost because I don’t care
is this getting somewhere
do the eyes on the other side
even comprehend with this share
lost
because I purposely left myself out there…

© Da Absentee 2012

*****

This is a reminder to myself. The mood captured in this is the reason I end every post with Stay Positive. The negative is always right around the corner…

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“Point Break”


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When did you arrive?
How did you arrive?
Did you boil?
Did you bubble up inside?
 
When is it enough?
How is it enough ?
Were you in denial?
Did it seem fake?
 
When did you learn?
How did you learn ?
Making the same mistakes…
Its become a choice.
 
Are you not the least concerned?
You say you hurt;
yet forward looks a lot like reverse.
You`ve been victimized…
By love and her cohorts.
 
So when is it quits?
When do you stop putting up with the shit?
When do you react for you?
take away its control
and get back to what’s best for you…
 
The act of only loving you….
© Da Absentee 2012
 
Sometimes we have to shake off the negative people and things in our lives. Sometimes we have to ask  “when is enough, enough?” When will we stop hurting ourselves to possibly make the negative better? How about making yourself better?
 
As Always…
 
Stay Positive!

“Mindless Reaching…”


Thoughts revolving
attempt at problem solving
constant revolution
to bring about
solution
drift with confusion
relations, figures and facts
odds & ends
a way to always back track
foreshadow & what could have been
stitches in time
stitches in seams
disappointment with enlightenment
north flowing streams
forgotten things
dangles
from unattached strings…

© Da Absentee 2011

*****

Looking deep inside to see what I can find…

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“Not Having Enough”


Broken Glass
 
 see how and why the world falls apart ?
all I know, is that I have my “know”
I have my heart, my mind, my spirit
how else am I supposed to get through this life, this instant.
 
I don’t know what to call what you have
but its all you have
you have twisted it, made it your vice
I acknowledge
you’ve made yourself unable to sleep at night
you can’t and wont let go
because it’s all you have in life
I don’t know how to help you get it right
 
even if I tell you there is a problem
you say im wrong
if you tell me the problem
and I dare to agree?..
im still wrong
really…
this can’t go on
 
© Da Absentee 2012
 
*****
 
I am not different or special when it comes to having downtimes or upsets in life. When we make the commitment to share this life with another person we sometimes have fights. We  have confrontations. This is a representation of what one of those unpleasant but real conversations anyone in long relationships will have. When one disagrees with the other or you find yourself in a cycle that’s needs to be broken. Well I have been there. I have written about it.  I’m moving on…
 
As Always…
 
Stay Positive! 
 
 

“Get’s Worse”


rose

Love is fading from me
this feeling get’s worse…
the end is near
im living like I am cursed
I don’t know what it is to be
what comes first
even tho it’s always almost never clear
this feeling get’s worse…

© Da Absentee 2012

*****

I wrote this trying to figure things out. I didn’t really think about what I was writing I just wrote. Darkness creeps in despite me trying to stay positive… But

As Always…

Stay Positive!