Tag Archives: Love

“Haven’t Succeeded”

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I can’t talk to you…

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Not for not wanting to talk to you 
Not for wanting to ignore you
It’s because of how much I have disappointed you.

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What can I say that would make up…
the heartache 
The headache… 
I caused. 

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I believe 
I deserve your love 
I haven’t shown you 
I deserve it.  

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what can I do to show you …
I know how to love you right
I’m sorry…

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I know this has not been easy. 
The stress. 
The ups and downs. 
Worrying about the bills 
Worrying about this life
worrying about me. 
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asking me to spend time with you 
I haven’t.
Why 
I really don’t know why. 
I try and plan. Then something always comes up. 

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Am I making excuses 
but this life…
it just is…
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you deserve more than something small. 
can’t even give you that. 
Some grand gesture 
You don’t …
We don’t need all of that
I just want it to be sincere
Truth
Simple

I thought I could be the man you needed. 

It’s all in that last line…
Even though its just that…

I haven’t succeeded…
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© Da Absentee 2015

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As Always…

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Stay Positive!

“Realization”

Posted by Da Absentee on

What do i need

To remember who i am

my past has shown me a future

i wish to strive for

unearth

finding myself in a process

I’m torn

its not settling right

good / evil

my innards not properly lit

too many shadows

too many unfinished walls

concrete pits

shaky foundation

unstable

in one too many directions

I’m lost in it

the unsettling

it doesnt sit right

haunted by my life

I can tell its gone

I know

I didn’t love it right

© Da Absentee 2015

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“She’s Beautiful” Update

Posted by Da Absentee on

IN MY EMAIL TODAY!!

One of my followers dropped me a special gift. She recorded and sent me a copy of her version of “She’s Beautiful”

I am so honored and humbled by her showing her support. Proud; to feel that I have inspired someone with my words. Thanks Smitten!

You can connect and follow Smitten on her >> Blog Smitten’s Blog is 100% personal sharing her life as she sees fit. You are forewarned that she can have explicit material but it is totally worth your wild to be drawn into and share in her world.

So join me by giving her a SHOUTOUT!! On a job well done! You can listen to Smitten’s rendition in the player below!…

As Always…
Stay Positive!

She’s Beautiful…

Posted by Da Absentee on

Yes I am
An identity all my own.

I am X & Y

at the same time

Boxed by the ignorant, 

shallow minded and feeble

I have no self-esteem issues

Nothing wrong with me

Nothing wrong with the collection of things

I call “self”

self-concept

Nothing askew with my personality 

faults are in my environment 

I can 

I will 

rule the world

Positive 

Guide to the new century

The world is in its place 

where it needs to be

Revolving around me

They say I lost my “voice” 

To attract the boys 

Lost & misplaced myself  

to gain appeal

Stifling my opinions, interests & self worth 

We know 

I know 

esteem grows as I grow

I am far from fragile

Not conflicted

I am not fraud

Who dares to say “I… am worthless”

I am not ambivalent 

I have a higher moral resolve than all these boys

more ethical

I can express my opinions 

I share what I am thinking

Express what’s important to me

Essential to the blueprint of the future

Humankind

Share whats on my mind

I can be the cause of wars 

Transformed into a muse 

Suffered the timeless abuse

With a voice stronger than some 

Initial instinctual protection

I own my intelligence

Dabble in appearance 

That man can not produce

What I speak becomes truth

One day

They will look and say…

She’s beautiful…

© Da Absentee 2015

  
As Always…

Stay Positive!