“Haven’t Succeeded”

Posted by Da Absentee on December 15, 2015

I can’t talk to you…

Not for not wanting to talk to you
Not for wanting to ignore you
It’s because of how much I have disappointed you.

.
What can I say that would make up…
the heartache
The headache…
I caused.

I believe
I deserve your love
I haven’t shown you
I deserve it.

.
what can I do to show you …
I know how to love you right
I’m sorry…

I know this has not been easy.
The stress.
The ups and downs.
Worrying about the bills
Worrying about this life
worrying about me.
.

asking me to spend time with you
I haven’t.
Why
I really don’t know why.
I try and plan. Then something always comes up.

Am I making excuses
but this life…
it just is…
.
you deserve more than something small.
can’t even give you that.
Some grand gesture
You don’t …
We don’t need all of that
I just want it to be sincere
Truth
Simple

I thought I could be the man you needed.

It’s all in that last line…
Even though its just that…

I haven’t succeeded…
.

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“We Should Be”

Posted by Da Absentee on November 30, 2015

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I`m confused; misplaced the love wrapped up in you
Can it be used
Even salvaged

Everything can be going right then we make a left
And we wrong
Possibly summed up in a sappy, silly love song
Replaced by everyday existence
Trial, tribulation.
Trouble and a dollar

I know you hurt
I see you cry
Even tho no tears are shed
I see it in your eyes
Your scared and its dark outside
The wheels will turn to get us out of there.
Out of here…

Despair…

Get us somewhere, someplace
We should be.
A tad more vibrant
A drop more bold
Someplace where our union can focus and hold
Become an affirmation for others to see example of real

And fantasy…

*****

This is a re-write of another poem which I re-visited. So its new & improved.

Every couple has their disagreements. Even in adverse times we all should have the goal to be better in everything we do or are a part of. We all want and deserve the best.

You can listen right here>>

As Always…

Stay Positive!

Scribbles – 28

Posted by Da Absentee on August 2, 2015

“We can only love them for who they are… Not for who we want them to be…”

-Da Absentee-

“Silence That Destroys”

Posted by Da Absentee on July 27, 2015

The little things seems to be the only thing that unravel our close knit seams

interrupt and dismantle our dreams

im at fault for my own uphill battle

it takes repetitve times

to destroy something with a simple rattle

im at fault for my own uphill battle…
I stretch out my arms and remain silent

its killing us;

my silence…

is it right to be this way to detour the fights

I dont look forward to my nights

but I pray for my nights
in my city it barely rains

but when it pours;

it never drains

i stand in a rising puddle soon to be submerged

Im colliding with the action

im unresponsive to the urge

we cant communicate without throwing words…

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“Your Course”

Posted by Da Absentee on May 2, 2014

Is the fault really yours
should you have seen, known all the signs
should you have recognized
that they needed more than you
more than one
more than you could have ever provided

don’t be crazy to believe
let someone tell you, It’s all your fault
is it your fault?
don`t know…
you shouldn`t care
because as of right now
that kind of thinking
will get you nowhere

they were damaged and bruised
that’s how they were received
that’s how they came to you
threats of life taking are numbing you
if that’s what they want
let them go ahead and do it already

only thing you do now
is wait, the waiting
you need more time
you need to take this into your own hands
force it down elongate that spine

some will examine
some will say its shitty
some will call it pity
you were trapped by vicinity
you couldn’t help
if you didn’t know how
can’t help if you don’t intervene
somehow their weak
they can’t move past hence
the past is constantly kicking their ass
if not clipped
they will attempt flight
which will be their last

You should be on a mission to cleanse
no more pretend
mind may be racing
without seeing an end
it’s a longer road than desired
but its yours
your monster, your friend
uncalculated unrestricted
your unconquerable end

As Always…

Stay Positive!