Everywhere I Go…

Posted by Da Absentee on November 26, 2014

Everywhere I go
No matter where I go
I know I take you with me…

wherever I go
no matter where I go
I know your here with me…

I live our memories
I carry you in my heart
wherever I go…

your always with me
everywhere I go
wherever I go…

unbeknownst the layers are thick
bloodline carry unique demographic

roads traveled; long
I don`t understand the words
automatic somethings we build on

heart in tune
the rhythm to my spine
I understand… undeniable time

working all day
with stress piling on
caffeinated drink in my hand
that’s not going cut it for too long
got you on my back telling me I’m wrong
feel like a slave
and I need me a song
cuz im here holding on
and with that said “I’m goin carry on”

you left me in the flames of the day light
knowing you weren’t going to extinguish me by night
seeking for at least one way to get right
but I`m alright

and I see and I know
i`m at peace with no fear
i`m ready to go
the devil is calling
my clock ticks slow
clouds ride and sit low…

everywhere i go…

“Tell You Why…”

Posted by Da Absentee on January 30, 2014

What has happen since the beginning…

whatever it is
it’s different

now and then; back then;

all I wanted was more “intense”

put anyone on the floor
feel you from a thousand miles away
to pick up the phone to say”I can hear when you thinking of me”

6th sense love
have it now…
yet

can’t find the rainbow;

can’t touch the pot of gold …Description changing

about to unfold,

become undone.
looking at it…

I “told” myself you were the one.I didn’t want to be fake,

so I threw my heart in & gave it my all

now i`m so engrossed…

I don’t, I know, I can’t fall…

For everyone’s sake.

I hold and support everything…

Who am I

degrade the work & blessings given to me…

my family?I have let it be known…

I don’t want to continue this.

Be a part of this life we have created…

I can’t tell you why…Why you love me so much;

I know you do…

I have transformed your being.

Even if you didn’t tell me

I knew

I`ve loved you how every woman needs

would want to be loved.

Turned your whole panoramic view around,

encouraged,

bared more than asked of me.I can’t tell you why?

If I want to be me…

Because nowadays

when I think of me

I don’t like me

matter of fact

I’m not even me

caught myself being fake to me

Can you tell me why?

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“Mindless Reaching…”

Posted by Da Absentee on October 5, 2013

Thoughts revolving
attempt at problem solving
constant revolution
to bring about
solution
drift with confusion
relations, figures and facts
odds & ends
a way to always back track
foreshadow & what could have been
stitches in time
stitches in seams
disappointment with enlightenment
north flowing streams
forgotten things
dangles
from unattached strings…

*****

Looking deep inside to see what I can find…

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“My Mother – 1”

Posted by Da Absentee on September 29, 2013

I survey the scene

one like this doesn’t take hours to make

this is dedication and planning

a labor of love that’s too demanding

too fierce

too free

she needs some restriction

because this is crazy…

I told her that she needs to downsize

she just laughed at me

christmas all year

and you’re not a christmas store

the floor like this

this is a hoard

a stash

decorations and bows

wreaths and garlands

curtains and china…

talk about service

she could cater the democrat

and republican conventions

all on the same night

the collection of silverware and plates

enormous…

this can’t be sane

half the time

I never plan on staying for more than 4 nights

its move this

pack this

place this here

did you run the errands

and my tools

they around here somewhere…

she have the house so done up

its more like bound to me

boxes and chairs

mattresses and don’t you dear forget

the christmas trees

of her own creation

her own application

and methodic fabrication

2 ten foot

2 eight foot

2 six-foot

strategically placed…

decorated and laden

to the T

don’t mess with this woman

when she is in the zone

she is a robot

a drone

if she could

you would marvel at what this almost 70-year-old

could do

on her own

the woman has no fear…

I stand and hate

but admire the clutter I see

how can I just ignore this woman

she has done so much for me

i`m glad she` s my mother

but this unbelievable

sometimes senseless hobby

has to cease…

*****

I really don’t put people in my family into writing, but sometimes it’s the only thing i can do. She has a problem that no one else wants to call her on. (talking about my siblings) I have told her it’s a waste. No one is going to continue this after she’s gone. It’s time to leave it alone.

As Always…

Stay Positive!