“Haven’t Succeeded”


I can’t talk to you…

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Not for not wanting to talk to you 
Not for wanting to ignore you
It’s because of how much I have disappointed you.

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What can I say that would make up…
the heartache 
The headache… 
I caused. 

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I believe 
I deserve your love 
I haven’t shown you 
I deserve it.  

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what can I do to show you …
I know how to love you right
I’m sorry…

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I know this has not been easy. 
The stress. 
The ups and downs. 
Worrying about the bills 
Worrying about this life
worrying about me. 
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asking me to spend time with you 
I haven’t.
Why 
I really don’t know why. 
I try and plan. Then something always comes up. 

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Am I making excuses 
but this life…
it just is…
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you deserve more than something small. 
can’t even give you that. 
Some grand gesture 
You don’t …
We don’t need all of that
I just want it to be sincere
Truth
Simple

I thought I could be the man you needed. 

It’s all in that last line…
Even though its just that…

I haven’t succeeded…
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© Da Absentee 2015

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As Always…

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Stay Positive!

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“Thoughts – 27”


Everytime

It shouldnt work that way

It shouldnt work this way

Still here but bitter

Here with mine

Live with mine

Everytime

Im human

Make good ones make bad ones

Pulled myself thru my self made hell

Pieces placed together 

Bond or gel

Everytime.

Im trying to figure this life out

Figure what im about…

 

(c) Da Absentee 2015

As Always…

Stay Positive!