Everywhere I Go…


Everywhere I go
No matter where I go
I know I take you with me…

wherever I go
no matter where I go
I know your here with me…

I live our memories
I carry you in my heart
wherever I go…

your always with me
everywhere I go
wherever I go…

unbeknownst the layers are thick
bloodline carry unique demographic

roads traveled; long
I don`t understand the words
automatic somethings we build on

heart in tune
the rhythm to my spine
I understand… undeniable time

working all day
with stress piling on
caffeinated drink in my hand
that’s not going cut it for too long
got you on my back telling me I’m wrong
feel like a slave
and I need me a song
cuz im here holding on
and with that said “I’m goin carry on”

you left me in the flames of the day light
knowing you weren’t going to extinguish me by night
seeking for at least one way to get right
but I`m alright

and I see and I know
i`m at peace with no fear
i`m ready to go
the devil is calling
my clock ticks slow
clouds ride and sit low…

everywhere i go…

© Da Absentee 2012

“Your Course”


Clox Da Absentee

 

Is the fault really yours
should you have seen, known all the signs
should you have recognized
that they needed more than you
more than one
more than you could have ever provided

don’t be crazy to believe
let someone tell you, It’s all your fault
is it your fault?
don`t know…
you shouldn`t care
because as of right now
that kind of thinking
will get you nowhere

they were damaged and bruised
that’s how they were received
that’s how they came to you
threats of life taking are numbing you
if that’s what they want
let them go ahead and do it already

only thing you do now
is wait, the waiting
you need more time
you need to take this into your own hands
force it down elongate that spine

some will examine
some will say its shitty
some will call it pity
you were  trapped by vicinity
you couldn’t help
if you didn’t know how
can’t help if you don’t intervene
somehow their weak
they can’t move past hence
the past is constantly kicking their ass
if not clipped
they will attempt flight
which will be their last

You should be on a mission to cleanse
no more pretend
mind may be racing
without seeing an end
it’s a longer road than desired
but its yours
your monster, your friend
uncalculated unrestricted
your unconquerable end

© Da Absentee 2012

 

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“Who Are You Really?”


Your life is not suppose to be this hard
really…
who said it was supposed to be easy.
who said everything is going to go as planned
matter of fact!
who told you, you were going to get everything you want.
who are you to ask for more than you need
what work have you put in?
where have you paid your dues
what makes you think you can fill someone else shoes.

© Da Absentee 2013

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I can go on & on about people who feel entitled to things in life. this is my brief rant.

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“Tell You Why…”


What has happen since the beginning…
whatever it is
it’s different
now and then; back then;
all I wanted was more “intense” 
put anyone on the floor
feel you from a thousand miles away
to pick up the phone to say”I can hear when you thinking of me”

6th sense love
have it now…
yet

can’t find the rainbow;
can’t touch the pot of gold …Description changing

about to unfold,
become undone.
looking at it…
I “told” myself you were the one.I didn’t want to be fake,

so I threw my heart in & gave it my all
now i`m so engrossed…
I don’t, I know, I can’t fall…
For everyone’s sake.
I hold and support everything…
Who am I
degrade the work & blessings given to me…
my family?I have let it be known…

I don’t want to continue this.
Be a part of this life we have created…
I can’t tell you why…Why you love me so much;

I know you do…
I have transformed your being.
Even if you didn’t tell me
I knew
I`ve loved you how every woman needs
would want to be loved.
Turned your whole panoramic view around,
encouraged,
bared more than asked of me.I can’t tell you why?

If I want to be me…

Because nowadays
when I think of me
I don’t like me
matter of fact
I’m not even me
caught myself being fake to me
Can you tell me why?
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© Da Absentee 2011
As Always…
Stay Positive!

“Lost”


 Streetlight

Wanting to be better
that’s why we see people like this
hash out emotions rarely spoken
hash out feelings off base from token
lost…
I wish I  was joking
I see walls being broken
using sleep to escape depression
using work to get out aggression
cautious walking in my “state of mind” library section
how did I end up here…
little recollection
lost in moments of self inspection
lost in the instances
lost in the seconds
is there any detection
searching for a glimpse of connection
lost in this warm Colorado breeze
lost in its seclusion
lost because I don’t care
is this getting somewhere
do the eyes on the other side
even comprehend with this share
lost
because I purposely left myself out there…

© Da Absentee 2012

*****

This is a reminder to myself. The mood captured in this is the reason I end every post with Stay Positive. The negative is always right around the corner…

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“Point Break”


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When did you arrive?
How did you arrive?
Did you boil?
Did you bubble up inside?
 
When is it enough?
How is it enough ?
Were you in denial?
Did it seem fake?
 
When did you learn?
How did you learn ?
Making the same mistakes…
Its become a choice.
 
Are you not the least concerned?
You say you hurt;
yet forward looks a lot like reverse.
You`ve been victimized…
By love and her cohorts.
 
So when is it quits?
When do you stop putting up with the shit?
When do you react for you?
take away its control
and get back to what’s best for you…
 
The act of only loving you….
© Da Absentee 2012
 
Sometimes we have to shake off the negative people and things in our lives. Sometimes we have to ask  “when is enough, enough?” When will we stop hurting ourselves to possibly make the negative better? How about making yourself better?
 
As Always…
 
Stay Positive!

“Yesterday” – Repost


yesterday

Yesterday;
we were thinking about;

tomorrow…

today;
we worry about things we said and did yesterday…
still;
today we worry about tomorrow…

yesterday was still fun
still productive…
what about today…
which was yesterday`s tomorrow…

does it matter less.
because we live it now.
or is it that we have to live

yesterday…
today;

for tomorrow

some way
as just a day

some how…

© Da Absentee 2011

*****

I always ask myself questions that I can probably never answer, I don’t even know if anyone can answer them. Life has so many opportunities that we sometimes walk right into and sometimes walk around …

As Always…

Stay Positive!