“Your Course”


Clox Da Absentee

 

Is the fault really yours
should you have seen, known all the signs
should you have recognized
that they needed more than you
more than one
more than you could have ever provided

don’t be crazy to believe
let someone tell you, It’s all your fault
is it your fault?
don`t know…
you shouldn`t care
because as of right now
that kind of thinking
will get you nowhere

they were damaged and bruised
that’s how they were received
that’s how they came to you
threats of life taking are numbing you
if that’s what they want
let them go ahead and do it already

only thing you do now
is wait, the waiting
you need more time
you need to take this into your own hands
force it down elongate that spine

some will examine
some will say its shitty
some will call it pity
you were  trapped by vicinity
you couldn’t help
if you didn’t know how
can’t help if you don’t intervene
somehow their weak
they can’t move past hence
the past is constantly kicking their ass
if not clipped
they will attempt flight
which will be their last

You should be on a mission to cleanse
no more pretend
mind may be racing
without seeing an end
it’s a longer road than desired
but its yours
your monster, your friend
uncalculated unrestricted
your unconquerable end

© Da Absentee 2012

 

As Always…

Stay Positive!

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“Levels”


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Knock, knock knocking
faint
can you hear it
echoes
because its hollow inside
empty and not holding
like a kite which glides

knock, knock knocking
mellow
it permeates
the fleshy eardrum skin
can you hear the beat from within
adhesive to bass and strings

knock, knock knocking…
Normal
like dancing to speech
it is reserved
but always in reach
I am listening
I am your student
please teach

knock, knock knocking
loud
I need you to get here
excuses at this point
is nothing I want to hear
I know you know better
so do so with care

knock, knock knocking
screaming
when I see you
your dead
you hear…

© Da Absentee 2011

 

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“Who Are You Really?”


Your life is not suppose to be this hard
really…
who said it was supposed to be easy.
who said everything is going to go as planned
matter of fact!
who told you, you were going to get everything you want.
who are you to ask for more than you need
what work have you put in?
where have you paid your dues
what makes you think you can fill someone else shoes.

© Da Absentee 2013

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I can go on & on about people who feel entitled to things in life. this is my brief rant.

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“Dead Fountain”


I recall when it was new, marble base, crystal waters you could see through. That new in love, that  can’t get enough of. It would radiate in the sun and moon beams, growing momentum. Nothing between.

Giving life and besting the weather. Easily unsullied with a fraction of attention \ affection. A little love and hard times seemed to disappear. Just like they were never there, never seen. Getting back up, no matter how much you fall. At the ready; to answer the call.

No longer shifting, no reason to mingle. Heavy laden with dirt, moss and grime. It does not flow, much less sprinkle. Chipped, broken and beaten. No longer sharing, no longer giving.

A tomb for the ones with a lost for living…

© Da Absentee 2012

*****

What we can become…

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“Lost”


 Streetlight

Wanting to be better
that’s why we see people like this
hash out emotions rarely spoken
hash out feelings off base from token
lost…
I wish I  was joking
I see walls being broken
using sleep to escape depression
using work to get out aggression
cautious walking in my “state of mind” library section
how did I end up here…
little recollection
lost in moments of self inspection
lost in the instances
lost in the seconds
is there any detection
searching for a glimpse of connection
lost in this warm Colorado breeze
lost in its seclusion
lost because I don’t care
is this getting somewhere
do the eyes on the other side
even comprehend with this share
lost
because I purposely left myself out there…

© Da Absentee 2012

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This is a reminder to myself. The mood captured in this is the reason I end every post with Stay Positive. The negative is always right around the corner…

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“Encourage”


Attempt your goals like birds at flight
with the absence of light
tunnels can come to scatter…

Everything becomes black
becomes one
no walls , no fraction
use knowledge as a candle.

Become the wick that burns through
thinking the thoughts  that bring light to you
someone is  always saying something
establish strength, flaws and foes
be the rising sun
make the cock-crow.

Cultivate
for what you reap you sow
all things need time to grow
differentiate
so you can spot a change in flow
re-iterate
do all the good things once more
repeat positive outcomes like before…

© Da Absentee 2011

*****

As Always…

Stay Positive!