“I wanted to say something…”


 

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Don’t let this world; or anyone play with your head
That includes you…
Don’t let the world or others; influence how you see yourself
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Stop shunning yourself;
doubting yourself
no one should love you
more than you love yourself
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Tossing is uncomfortable
Turning is not the same as change
You are not unreasonable
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Right now… You are irreplacable
Someone knows your beautiful
Skin color, blemishes, stretch marks and dark spots;
No concern
The thin, thick or in between you
No matter how you look
someone has love to give to you
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Somewhere
the only thing you would want is love in return
Stop asking yourself
Who would, who could
love me, want me
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Feel secure in you
Even after months of dedicated work
On being a better you
Do you say to yourself?
“I love you”
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You are monetary
Rich now; that was unavailable
You are stability
worlds falling apart
Yet your insurance and safety
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You’re sanctuary
day runs smooth; make this world make sense
Never give you up, know what you have
Comprehend whats worth fighting for
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You worry about being a mom
Being better than yours
Loving better than yours
Letting your seed know you love her
Dont worry ma…
She knows
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No one to replace you
Dont think you excel in some areas
And fall in others
you are far beyond that level
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Just be you
Live with you
Live with this life you made
Its yours after all
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You are
independent, strong…
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You can leave a legacy.
Working hard alone is never wrong….
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(C) Da Absentee 2016
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As Always…
Stay Positive!

“Thoughts – 28”


There is remorse
in having to admit
The kinks in your armor
Any sign of weakness
Spilling of your soul
Something hurtful to confess
A spot of soft flesh.

Putting anything on the line
Out in the open
There are riddles
That should be left unspoken
Examples of not being

All you can be
How can you live with not being you
Truly…

Another one for the pile
Of interrogation
On the subject of…

“Who should I be?..”
© Da Absentee 2015
As Always…
Stay Positive!IMG_0244

“Haven’t Succeeded”


I can’t talk to you…

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Not for not wanting to talk to you 
Not for wanting to ignore you
It’s because of how much I have disappointed you.

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What can I say that would make up…
the heartache 
The headache… 
I caused. 

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I believe 
I deserve your love 
I haven’t shown you 
I deserve it.  

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what can I do to show you …
I know how to love you right
I’m sorry…

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I know this has not been easy. 
The stress. 
The ups and downs. 
Worrying about the bills 
Worrying about this life
worrying about me. 
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asking me to spend time with you 
I haven’t.
Why 
I really don’t know why. 
I try and plan. Then something always comes up. 

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Am I making excuses 
but this life…
it just is…
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you deserve more than something small. 
can’t even give you that. 
Some grand gesture 
You don’t …
We don’t need all of that
I just want it to be sincere
Truth
Simple

I thought I could be the man you needed. 

It’s all in that last line…
Even though its just that…

I haven’t succeeded…
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© Da Absentee 2015

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As Always…

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Stay Positive!