Everywhere I Go…


Everywhere I go
No matter where I go
I know I take you with me…

wherever I go
no matter where I go
I know your here with me…

I live our memories
I carry you in my heart
wherever I go…

your always with me
everywhere I go
wherever I go…

unbeknownst the layers are thick
bloodline carry unique demographic

roads traveled; long
I don`t understand the words
automatic somethings we build on

heart in tune
the rhythm to my spine
I understand… undeniable time

working all day
with stress piling on
caffeinated drink in my hand
that’s not going cut it for too long
got you on my back telling me I’m wrong
feel like a slave
and I need me a song
cuz im here holding on
and with that said “I’m goin carry on”

you left me in the flames of the day light
knowing you weren’t going to extinguish me by night
seeking for at least one way to get right
but I`m alright

and I see and I know
i`m at peace with no fear
i`m ready to go
the devil is calling
my clock ticks slow
clouds ride and sit low…

everywhere i go…

© Da Absentee 2012

“Thoughts – 21”


I dont know when i hit rock bottom
but i know as the days go
it seems that i hit it more often
that pit in my stomach
the clog of my throat
the blood pressure
passing through my heart
the lost of…
feels like its ready to explode
out my chest
talking about grasping
Talking about suppressing
i find my therapy
stressing
unrelenting
depressing,
anxiety fleshing a quandary
killing myself with prying
i dont even know if i`m dying
anger is next
one of the feelings i rarely get
i never let alot take me there
a duck in water
every and all things
need to run off my back
cant afford any extra weight
the hate
the despair
let it all wash me off
displace and disappear
sidenote
I enjoy the dry air up here
to bad its so thin
no traveling
it cant take me somewhere
i’m trying to get far away
From this place that leads to nowhere…

(C) Da Absentee 2013

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“Pressure To Perform”


Chronic love
ready hold you steady
tight cuddle… teddy
Dont know if im ready
the thought of
the attempt of
to make love
last long
love strong
I dont even understand
what & why men put so much emphasis on
have all this pressure to perform
so being a man
i know plenty have the urge to cheat
do what we can
to cum strong
stay long
keep that hard on
experience ed or premature
but for everything your going to be good at
you gotta prepare for
men have become lazy
dont wanna work for nothing
not even proper gratification
love satisfaction
then have the nerve to complain
about negative reactions…

Da Absentee (c) 2012

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“Your Course”


Clox Da Absentee

 

Is the fault really yours
should you have seen, known all the signs
should you have recognized
that they needed more than you
more than one
more than you could have ever provided

don’t be crazy to believe
let someone tell you, It’s all your fault
is it your fault?
don`t know…
you shouldn`t care
because as of right now
that kind of thinking
will get you nowhere

they were damaged and bruised
that’s how they were received
that’s how they came to you
threats of life taking are numbing you
if that’s what they want
let them go ahead and do it already

only thing you do now
is wait, the waiting
you need more time
you need to take this into your own hands
force it down elongate that spine

some will examine
some will say its shitty
some will call it pity
you were  trapped by vicinity
you couldn’t help
if you didn’t know how
can’t help if you don’t intervene
somehow their weak
they can’t move past hence
the past is constantly kicking their ass
if not clipped
they will attempt flight
which will be their last

You should be on a mission to cleanse
no more pretend
mind may be racing
without seeing an end
it’s a longer road than desired
but its yours
your monster, your friend
uncalculated unrestricted
your unconquerable end

© Da Absentee 2012

 

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“Exhale”


dplogo

I`ve been waiting and wanting
for u to engage me
i`ve waited and used control
the heat causes me to perspire

But time wont let me exhale
it goes without fail
u know I need u close
to keep it up

I need it I want it
I can’t hold it anymore
I need your touch
to exhale like before

© Dual Perspective 2011

As Always…
Stay Positive!

“Who Are You Really?”


Your life is not suppose to be this hard
really…
who said it was supposed to be easy.
who said everything is going to go as planned
matter of fact!
who told you, you were going to get everything you want.
who are you to ask for more than you need
what work have you put in?
where have you paid your dues
what makes you think you can fill someone else shoes.

© Da Absentee 2013

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I can go on & on about people who feel entitled to things in life. this is my brief rant.

As Always…

Stay Positive!

“Searching…”


A lonely ride…
most keep to themselves
keep what they are thinking
on the inside.

Imagine…
fine and dandy
one step to insanity
five steps from normal.

Wishing…
for good fortune
being needs to be nurtured
cared for; developed.

Clarity…
let go without a whim
unlock from within
bound in separation.

Few take this ride
tell what they have inside
can you think straight
battling through your test of faith

only time will tell
your tale
we don’t know
if evil or good will prevail…

© Da Absentee 2012

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