Tap…
goes the pen against the pad
the irony of it blankets me
it falsifies and discredits me

pen to pad…
questions loom
is this all I have
all I ever will

tap…
the words my mother attempted to instill
thoughts of finally finding me
I have a muse
I ignore her call
always…
Yet never forget
think eternally

pen to pad…
it’s as if a river runs through my mind
I feel… I have become lost in time
somewhere
behind your eyes
I realize
I wish I knew
what you have behind your eyes

Tap…
galaxy, orbit to star
stream along, guide along
how long, how far
we are who we are
even if we don’t understand
how we became…

I / We wonder who we are…

© Da Absentee 2012

*****

Let’s see… You know when your mind is going. Then you have an idea then another. well this one actually came about because of that mental hopping. Instead of dissecting it and splitting it into 2 poems i left it as 1. Only because that is how it was written or conceived. (2 Thoughts running parallel at the same time) So with that being said if you bunch the “tap” verses together it flows as one.  Do the same for the  “pen” verses and the same is true.

As Always…

Stay Positive!

Thoughts revolving
attempt at problem solving
constant revolution
to bring about
solution
drift with confusion
relations, figures and facts
odds & ends
a way to always backtrack
foreshadow & what could have been
stitches in time
stitches in seams
disappointment with enlightenment
north flowing streams
forgotten things
dangles
from unattached strings…

© Da Absentee 2011

*****

Looking deep inside to see what I can find…

As Always…

Stay Positive!

Attempt your goals like birds at flight
with the absence of light
tunnels can come to scatter…

Everything becomes black
becomes one
no walls , no fraction, no faction
use knowledge as a candle.

Become the wick that burns through
thinking the thoughts  that bring light to you
someone is  always saying something
establish strength, flaws and foes
be the rising sun
make the cock-crow.

Cultivate
for what you reap you sow
all things need time to grow
differentiate
so you can spot a change in flow
reiterate
do all the good things once more
repeat positive outcomes like before…

© Da Absentee 2011 revised 2024

*****

As Always…

Stay Positive!

 

Wanting to be better
that’s why we see people like this – therapist
hash out emotions rarely spoken
hash out feelings off base from token
“lost…”
I wish I  was joking
I see walls being broken
using sleep to escape depression
using work to get out aggression
cautious walking in “my own state of minds” library section
how did I get here…
little recollection
lost in moments of self inspection
lost in the instances
lost in the seconds
is there any detection – “any misdirection?”
searching for a glimpse of connection
lost in a warm Colorado breeze
lost in its seclusion – “lost in my own illusion”
lost because I don’t care
is this getting somewhere
do the eyes on the other side
even comprehend with this share
“lost”
because I purposely left myself out there…

© Da Absentee 2012

*****

This is a reminder to myself. The mood captured in this is the reason I end every post with Stay Positive.

The negative is always right around the corner…

As Always…

Stay Positive!

Grown to a limit
Til out of sight
Disappointment
Cricket speaks; nothing comes cheap

Even if you don’t agree
Your story; my story is complete
We are lost
World no longer at our feet

Listen to it
The heartbeat
Slowing every minute
Sooner no later
Stops… fades

Pre-planned to disappear
Disperse, deceased, gone
No more together
No more alone
No more you or me
Peace…

Tranquility

© Da Absentee 2011 revised 2024

As Always…

Stay Positive!

My handwriting.

I use both on a regular basis👍🏾👌🏾😉

A lonely ride…
most keep to themselves
keep what they are thinking
on the inside.

Imagine…
fine and dandy
one step to insanity
five steps from normal.

Wishing…
for good fortune
being needs to be nurtured
cared for; developed.

Clarity…
let go without a whim
unlock from within
bound in separation.

Few take this ride
tell what they have inside
can you think straight
battling through your test of faith

only time will tell
your tale
we don’t know
if evil or good will prevail…

© Da Absentee 2012

As Always…

Stay Positive!