0 – Thoughts – 12


Stops… Hearts do every second
leaps and bounds; it calls and it beckons
life has so many lessons

to teach
so many souls out of our reach
imagine things we can do
with the things we put our mind to

love sometimes stays or goes
grows, fades, passes us by
wind blows, like winning blows
as river flows, time goes…

listening to the world around
loud crashes, breaks, and peaceful sounds
turn around to see and learn
wait… you will always get your turn
in the same order
history repeats itself…
common case disorder

some things fall into place
when & after tears roll down your face
what’s near, can be far
this you already know…

final thought…
everything changes…
thats life…

© Da Absentee 2012

*****

So to all of you who faithfully read and visit…

Writings labeled “Thoughts” – these usually come out of what I guess everyone calls “writers block” or not knowing what to write. I have found that even in this stage. You just need to write something , anything.

With that being said, the work that will be put into the “Thoughts” category will not be normal. They will be eccentric or a little off, according to standards…

As Always…

Stay Positive!

0 – Thoughts – 22


thoughts

As my years seem to go by
I look in the reflection to smirk
battled far, battled long
I fight hard and seem to always carry a song
sometimes that seems to strike me empty
I miss my love
wish I had more family to share my love
I have been torn, broken
it seems I was always on a track
to be outspoken from the clan
I see my brother
don’t understand how he went wrong
I speak to my sister,
I just wanna shake her
scream at her “whats wrong?”
We all can’t be the same line
that my parents, who love to say they spent money on
I laugh, 
I really have lost the lust for it
too bad the thing about my birthdays
as far as I can remember
I have always felt solemn like this

© Da Absentee 2012 revised 2024

“As Always…. Stay Positive!”

Birthday: 3/9

2 – Thoughts – 24


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I’m really

Really

trying to ground myself in reality

Keep telling me

asking me

whats wrong with me

Im solid, im straight

What I need

what I believe is 2 different things

I need my own peace.

What I believe

We shouldn’t fall apart because of material

But material is what i need

to continue to provide the cereal

The material is what provides the shelter

Material keeps the kids in school

Keep this internet and the cable

you can’t sit in this house without on.

It keeps the car note paid

Keeps the car on the road

sorry if

I’m caught up in the material thread

I’m sorry

if it’s the only thing that’s filling my head

Bond and strength

At this rate

I might as well be dead…

© Da Absentee 2015 revised 2024

As Always…

Stay Positive!

9 – Thoughts – 26


thoughts

It all passes. The realization of it all. This life is a walking, living contradiction battle. A duality lesson. Everything is real & fake at the same time. So…

I take this ride every now and then. When I close my eyes momentarily, I steal moments. Stealing moments from the reality I have constructed; stealing moments from everything as they steal my moments…

We do this dance of real & fake. Tit for tat. I hit you, you hit me back. Just enough, insuring that we are not lost. I’m pretty sure I have paid some piper. All that he is owed. He has given all he could show…

Doing this gives unusual discomfort. What should be the use of my time?…

I claim I am man. I claim I am who I am…

Yet still…

I claim to be so much more. I want…

I need…

So much more than before…

© Da Absentee 2015 revised 2024

As Always…

Stay Positive!

9 – Thoughts – 27


thoughts

Everytime. I think about this life

It shouldn’t work that way

It shouldn’t work this way

Still here but bitter. all the time

Here with mine (decisions)

Live with mine (decisions)

Everytime. I tell myself.

Im human.

Make good ones make bad ones (decisions)

Pulled myself thru my-self made hell

This life I pieces / placed together

Everytime.

I’m trying to figure this life out

Figure what I am about…

It’s truly time…

© Da Absentee 2015 revised 2024

As Always…

Stay Positive!

0 – Thoughts – 28


thoughts

There is remorse in having to admit
The kinks in your armor are signs of weakness
Spilling out from your soul
Something hurtful to confess, A spot of soft flesh.

Putting everything on the line, putting “you” out in the open
You tell yourself these are riddles; that should be left unspoken.

Can you live with not being you. Truly…

Another ism or thing for the pile added to your self interrogation
On the subject or the mystery…

“Who Should I Be?..”

© Da Absentee 2015 revised 2024

As Always…
Stay Positive!

0 – Thoughts – 21


I don’t actually know when i hit rock bottom
i do know as the days go by
it seems that i hit it more often
it hits like the pit in my stomach
the clog of my throat
no blood pressure passing through my heart
the lost of life
I feels like pieces are ready to explode
grasping at air
Talking about suppressing
i find my therapy stressing, unrelenting, depressing
anxiety fleshing a quandary
i don’t even know if I’m dying
i never let things take me to an edge
a duck in water with every and all things
let it all run off my back
we can’t afford the extra weight
the hate, the despair
let it all become displaced 
but
no traveling, at this point 
nothing can’t take me somewhere
i’m trying to get far away
From this place that leads nowhere…

©️ Da Absentee 2013 revised 2024