You are
Who you are
No matter who you portray to be
To deny that fact
Is damaging to say the least…
5 – Ready For Instruction
Secluded and nonchalant
coming together
knowing what we want
be my guide to your bodies tundra
show me where and how to touch down under
expedition to your spot by the numbers
Educate me on how to lick by example
illustrate how to break down walls
free from inhibitions
Tell me how to swallow your bitter sweet i’m facing
I`m face in…
but that doesnt mean we cant reach
show me how you touch yourself
making your heart skip beats
influencing your heart to melt
how does your love permeate and be felt
lost in a whirlwind of no one else
I am interested in how your doing
how your petals fall
how I can sift through it all
student enthralled
hung on how you teach
speak your language
fluent… speech… teachers pet
fluid… yet hot baked
cinnamon swirl… salty, pretzel bend
apple for retention
readily revive a connection
how to collapse your essence
section by section…
© Da Absentee 2012 revised 2024
*****
I do believe we should learn to please our partners. After all what is the sense of letting someone get so close if it wasn’t worth it….
As Always…
Stay Positive !
9 – Memories Of Fruit Trees
As my islands rise
from ocean, from salt
polyps and lime
so do I…
My love is how
I try
though thin
and not the best
my world is like no one else…
Some take root to add
some come to slash and burn
which only lasts for so long…
Some bring their own soil
to add up on
we are void, my isle and me
Only childhood memories
truly consistent to me
fruit trees, mango to sapadilly…
Sea grape to lime,
coconuts was like throwing pearl to swine
cherries and june plum,
grapefruit to scarlet plum.
Yellow plum and guinep
I remember hurricane winds
roaming through these trees
breadfruit and ackee
dashed away lemons on lemons
sour orange and sour sop
down to the cherries and tomatoes
pineapple to coco plum
thinking of it
I could taste my archipelago…
I miss my home so
I can smile tho…
for it’s in my heart
with me
Wherever I go!
© Da Absentee 2012
*****
Growing up in the islands was such an enlightening thing for me. I would not know what I would be without it. I haven’t travelled home in a long time I think it’s high time I make a trip. Even if it’s just to sit at the beach with my feet in the sand.
As Always…
Stay Positive!
0 – Mindless Reaching
Thoughts revolving
attempt at problem solving
constant revolution
to bring about
solution
drift with confusion
relations, figures and facts
odds & ends
a way to always backtrack
foreshadow & what could have been
stitches in time
stitches in seams
disappointment with enlightenment
north flowing streams
forgotten things
dangles
from unattached strings…
© Da Absentee 2011
*****
Looking deep inside to see what I can find…
As Always…
Stay Positive!
0 – Encourage
Attempt your goals like birds at flight
with the absence of light
tunnels can come to scatter…
Everything becomes black
becomes one
no walls , no fraction, no faction
use knowledge as a candle.
Become the wick that burns through
thinking the thoughts that bring light to you
someone is always saying something
establish strength, flaws and foes
be the rising sun
make the cock-crow.
Cultivate
for what you reap you sow
all things need time to grow
differentiate
so you can spot a change in flow
reiterate
do all the good things once more
repeat positive outcomes like before…
© Da Absentee 2011 revised 2024
*****
As Always…
Stay Positive!
5 – Need Me Some You
Need me some you
Analog to digital
tell me how can just a gesture
chopped and screwed
make the unspeakable premonitions
spin and vibrate, come through
ring true
pop and boom
slow song in the back ground
my body and mind calling for you
wires that send the signals through
pleasure proportionate to me
bass chords plucked
Rest your ego
place your regality
you are personage to me
as bona-fide as it can be
I’ve set the stage
don’t tell me I cant have you now
I’m the MC
just tell me when and how….
© Da Absentee 2012 revised 2024
As Always…
Stay Positive!
9 – Point Break
When did you arrive?
How did you arrive?
Did you boil?
Did you bubble up inside?
How did you arrive?
Did you boil?
Did you bubble up inside?
When is it enough?
How is it enough ?
Were you in denial?
Did it seem fake?
When did you learn?
How did you learn ?
Making the same mistakes…
Its become a choice.
Are you not the least concerned?
You say you hurt;
yet forward looks a lot like reverse.
You`ve been victimized…
By love and her cohorts.
So when is it quits?
When do you stop putting up with the shit?
When do you react for you?
take away its control
and get back to what’s best for you…
The act of only loving you….
© Da Absentee 2012
Sometimes we have to shake off the negative people and things in our lives. Sometimes we have to ask “when is enough, enough?” When will we stop hurting ourselves to possibly make the negative better? How about making yourself better?
As Always…
Stay Positive!
9 – Dead Fountain
I recall when it was new, marble base, crystal waters you could see through. That new in love, that can’t get enough of. It would radiate in the sun and moon beams, growing momentum. Nothing between.
Giving life and besting the weather. Easily unsullied with a fraction of attention \ affection. A little love and hard times seemed to disappear. Just like they were never there, never seen. Getting back up, no matter how much you fall. At the ready; to answer the call.
No longer shifting, no reason to mingle. Heavy laden with dirt, moss and grime. It does not flow, much less sprinkle. Chipped, broken and beaten. No longer sharing, no longer giving.
A tomb for the ones with a lost for living…
© Da Absentee 2012
*****
What we can become when love goes bad…
As Always…
Stay Positive!
9 – I Wish
I wish we all had more than enough
More than material wealth
I wish we could take care of ourselves
With so much to lose and so much to gain
can’t we all be friends
Wish i could talk to my fallen again
I wish i didn’t fit a profile
I wish the system would stop with the lies
I live in the land of the free
but when it comes to air…
It feels like they tryna take it away from me…
I wish to silence all the tears
Dry all the cries
I wish we could try.
Love each other And kiss the hate goodbye…
© Da Absentee 2013
As always…
Stay Positive!
9 – Scribbles – 27
change negative
crossover zero
show the future how to live
shine like lighthouses
in the depth of night
work hard on improving whats wrong
by any means
above and proceed
stay positive…
Is the only thing I choose to plant as a seed
0 – What I Don’t Know
The answers to the questions of my world lie within these pages
within these lines, within another time
I can`t answer or find them now
these choice words are just being written
in mass confusion, in a mask of confusion
I lock my heart expeditiously,
I make nothing seen; I don’t leave a mark that would betray me
I see the monsters, see the monster
the one I created… in turn created me
I am what I think… I think to create…
Life is too short
to dwell on
from and through my mistakes
must adapt, must move on
consider new states
these words, these lines
my escape…
© Da Absentee 2014
As Always…
Stay Positive!
5 – Scribbles – 2
That sexed sweetly specific glow
Body washed, dried, pressed & folded look
Neatly dirty & cleaned
That glow that those who know
Just know
Ask you about the glow
Your eyes tell truth and the lies
5 – Scribbles – 37
you left me in the flames of the day light
knowing you weren’t going to extinguish me by night
seeking for at least one way to get right
I see and I know
I’m at peace with the no
i stay ready to go
the devil is calling
my clock ticks slow – falling
clouds ride and sit low, your rain stalling
0 – Lost
Wanting to be better
that’s why we see people like this – therapist
hash out emotions rarely spoken
hash out feelings off base from token
“lost…”
I wish I was joking
I see walls being broken
using sleep to escape depression
using work to get out aggression
cautious walking in “my own state of minds” library section
how did I get here…
little recollection
lost in moments of self inspection
lost in the instances
lost in the seconds
is there any detection – “any misdirection?”
searching for a glimpse of connection
lost in a warm Colorado breeze
lost in its seclusion – “lost in my own illusion”
lost because I don’t care
is this getting somewhere
do the eyes on the other side
even comprehend with this share
“lost”
because I purposely left myself out there…
© Da Absentee 2012
*****
This is a reminder to myself. The mood captured in this is the reason I end every post with Stay Positive.
The negative is always right around the corner…
As Always…
Stay Positive!
0 – Ahead
Traveling to a bridge
half way across this bridge
realize the foundation is paper
certified – stamped – engineered – proceed
continue at some prescribed prior speed
before stepping off the bridge
remember what was taught
what was experienced
What was said
take those final steps
so that you can embark on the new road ahead
© Da Absentee 2012 revised 2024
*****
One look at life…
As Always…
Stay Positive!
2 – I Can’t Tell You Why
“What has happened since the beginning…”
whatever it is
it’s different
it’s different
now and then; back then;
all I wanted was more “intense”
put anyone on the floor
feel you from a thousand miles away
to pick up the phone to say
feel you from a thousand miles away
to pick up the phone to say
“I can hear when you thinking of me”
6th sense love
have it now…
yet I can’t find the rainbow;
have it now…
yet I can’t find the rainbow;
can’t touch the pot of gold …
All of the descriptions are changing
everything about to unfold,
become undone.
looking at it…
looking at it…
I “told” myself you were the one.
I didn’t want to be fake,
so I threw my heart in & gave it my all
now i`m so engrossed…
I don’t, I know, I can’t fall…
For everyone’s sake.
I hold and support everything…
“Who am I to degrade the work & blessings given to me…”
my family? I have let it be known…
I don’t want to continue this.
Be a part of this life we have created…
I can’t tell you why…
Why you love me so much;
I know you do…
I have transformed your being.
Even if you didn’t tell me
“I knew”
I`ve loved you how every woman needs
how “I believe” one would want to be loved.
Turned your whole panoramic view around,
encouraged,
bared more than asked of me.
I can’t tell you why?
“Do I want to be me…”
Because nowadays
when I think of me
I don’t like me
neglected parts
matter of fact
“I’m not even me”
caught myself being fake to me
Can you tell me why?
© Da Absentee 2011 revised 2024
As Always…
Stay Positive!
9 – Scribbles – 26
glasses broken
the universe disturbed
in my distance unheard
still to be firm
some things can not gain my concern
some things should only be used to learn
2 – Promised
I to you
plans to unfold
stability
infinite as mathematics
traceable with repeat-ability
someone to confide
dreams, secrets, aspirations
appreciate your dark-side
understand who you are
inside
not bound
by law or regulation
I to you
stand and stick by you
there to our end
as shadows…
complementing instruments
an ensemble…
friends
I promise now – promised then
if it comes down to it
or ever forgotten
I’ll remind and promise it
again…
© Da Absentee 2011 revised 2024
As Always…
Stay Positive!
9 – Who Are You Really
your life is not suppose to be this hard?
really?..
who said it was supposed to be easy?
who said everything is going to go as planned?
matter of fact!
who told you, you were going to get everything you want?
who are you to ask for more than you need?
what work have you put in?
where is your provisions?
where have you paid dues?
what makes you think you can fill someone else shoes?
just because you think & say you want to…
© Da Absentee 2013
As Always…
Stay Positive!
Muses… 