As my years seem to go by
I look in the reflection to smirk
battled far, battled long
I fight hard and seem to always carry a song
sometimes that seems to strike me empty
I miss my love
wish I had more family to share my love
I have been torn, broken
it seems I was always on a track
to be outspoken from the clan
I see my brother
don’t understand how he went wrong
I speak to my sister,
I just wanna shake her
scream at her “whats wrong?”
We all can’t be the same line
that my parents, who love to say they spent money on
I laugh, 
I really have lost the lust for it
too bad the thing about my birthdays
as far as I can remember
I have always felt solemn like this

© Da Absentee 2012 revised 2024

“As Always…. Stay Positive!”

Birthday: 3/9

Feather brained
sewn and laid
attempting to hone
fortify home
sun grained
trapped in a spotlight
only turned off by night
full rotation
heart quiet
but pacing
soft breeze
blow blades of grass
this should be home

before I past…

©Da Absentee 2012

As Always…

Stay Positive!

Life is constantly always something new

New hurdle or obstacle

New blemish or spot

New fork or path

Always a new place to go

We can never expect the smooth

Always looking or living in the rough

The things that escape or get away from us…
© Da Absentee 2015 revised 2024

As Always…

Stay Positive!

It all passes. The realization of it all. This life is a walking, living contradiction battle. A duality lesson. Everything is real & fake at the same time. So…

I take this ride every now and then. When I close my eyes momentarily, I steal moments. Stealing moments from the reality I have constructed; stealing moments from everything as they steal my moments…

We do this dance of real & fake. Tit for tat. I hit you, you hit me back. Just enough, insuring that we are not lost. I’m pretty sure I have paid some piper. All that he is owed. He has given all he could show…

Doing this gives unusual discomfort. What should be the use of my time?…

I claim I am man. I claim I am who I am…

Yet still…

I claim to be so much more. I want…

I need…

So much more than before…

© Da Absentee 2015 revised 2024

As Always…

Stay Positive!

Everytime. I think about this life

It shouldn’t work that way

It shouldn’t work this way

Still here but bitter. all the time

Here with mine (decisions)

Live with mine (decisions)

Everytime. I tell myself.

Im human.

Make good ones make bad ones (decisions)

Pulled myself thru my-self made hell

This life I pieces / placed together

Everytime.

I’m trying to figure this life out

Figure what I am about…

It’s truly time…

© Da Absentee 2015 revised 2024

As Always…

Stay Positive!