“What has happened since the beginning…”
whatever it is
it’s different
it’s different
now and then; back then;
all I wanted was more “intense”
put anyone on the floor
feel you from a thousand miles away
to pick up the phone to say
feel you from a thousand miles away
to pick up the phone to say
“I can hear when you thinking of me”
6th sense love
have it now…
yet I can’t find the rainbow;
have it now…
yet I can’t find the rainbow;
can’t touch the pot of gold …
All of the descriptions are changing
everything about to unfold,
become undone.
looking at it…
looking at it…
I “told” myself you were the one.
I didn’t want to be fake,
so I threw my heart in & gave it my all
now i`m so engrossed…
I don’t, I know, I can’t fall…
For everyone’s sake.
I hold and support everything…
“Who am I to degrade the work & blessings given to me…”
my family? I have let it be known…
I don’t want to continue this.
Be a part of this life we have created…
I can’t tell you why…
Why you love me so much;
I know you do…
I have transformed your being.
Even if you didn’t tell me
“I knew”
I`ve loved you how every woman needs
how “I believe” one would want to be loved.
Turned your whole panoramic view around,
encouraged,
bared more than asked of me.
I can’t tell you why?
“Do I want to be me…”
Because nowadays
when I think of me
I don’t like me
neglected parts
matter of fact
“I’m not even me”
caught myself being fake to me
Can you tell me why?
© Da Absentee 2011 revised 2024
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Muses… 
EXACTLY. awesome poem. these words really spoke to me-
“I “told” myself you were the one.I didn’t want to be fake,
so I threw my heart in & gave it my all
now i`m so engrossed…
I don’t, I know, I can’t fall…
For everyone’s sake.
I hold and support everything…”
personally, i can totally relate, i tend to hold back, to not love, but once i chose to love someone, i go all in. i try not to be fake, if i say i’ll give us a real shot, i try to really give us a real shot. and then i have to keep it going especially once families have met, etc… and then i feel like im the one holding everything together, and that can’t be me. not in love anyway..’
anyway, im not entirely sure if that’s what you wrote, or just what i read into it, but that’s the sign of a great poem, when you write something that everyone can read their own story into. best poem from you. i love this. like really really love this.
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well thank you. and it is what i was writing. I actually wrote it thinking back to when i was dating my wife. when i sum everything up . those lines came to be
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