5 – For Your Body (T)


I thirst…  to touch your body
and taste your fold
and feel your tremors whilst you unfold
tell me the things to tame your heart
open the gates that hold treasure tart
tell the technique
to make our tune… our union
an erotic treat
aim to thrill in totality
teach me to make you drip from anticipation
so when I brave the river
I feel, tease, taste and see
opaque and translucent juices run
experience multiple orgasms
tour your frame with tender kisses
loose and stiff tongue
toil at a love
that I love to be a part of
tempt me at every twist and turn
so I thirst..
to touch your body
and taste your fold
and feel your tremors
whilst you unfold…

©  Da Absentee 2011 revised 2024

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I wrote this trying to convey how a man  would feel craving the one they love. Being in the moment and the experience. While using as many words that start with the letter “T”.  I ended up using 30 + t words.
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1 – Education Not For Everyone?


2024 – This post was originally time stamped 01042012 – The year is 2024. I have helped facilitate 2 bachelor’s degree, in the middle of facilitating another 4 year degree. I want to add that because of the pursuit for “more”, the people I call my children are more “well rounded” than I was at their ages. Those statements are not groundbreaking. However it makes me proud to say i did more for them than my parents did for me. The thinking in this post is still valid in my life. I wish our world the best in the future.

Education can be one of the ways for our communities and people to rise above today’s current standards. We as people should use the resource of education to help overcome all aspects of negative world happenings. We have to use it as a driving force that would make available to us the common luxuries and securities that any normal person would want.

“Knowledge is Power” this is so true but I have also heard one to many times over the years that “College is Overrated”.  After coming of age and the positioning myself in this world, that statement is now and forever… wrong!  In today’s world having the opportunity to attend an institution of higher education and thinking is quite possibly the only way to travel the path of life.

Having grown and developed at a disadvantage. I took the example of my parents and ran with it. They themselves never attending college but being rather more successful than most with lists of accomplishments that could be considered above average.Yet… they to have fallen. They could not properly sustain their success even though being more than capable.

In today’s ever-changing, technological, light-speed global economy we should strive to help position ourselves and our offspring to heights well beyond our own undertakings. Some of us have grown up in environments where covering the bills was considered a way of life.  Just “Having Enough” will do and “I’m a Survivor” and I will “Make due with What I have”. Not saying these forms of thinking is wrong or neglectful but do we not want more from ourselves and our lives?

The less or uneducated man is least likely to succeed. Just a high school diploma to progress is not enough. For our young people to have any chance of a healthy, fulfilling and comfortable lifestyle we have to educate them!

I think of my nieces and nephews when I say “I wish I could afford to send them to school to better themselves.” 1 or 2 may get scholarships, toil away at the system and turnout alright, but I want more for them.

We as people have been victimized for many years, this should not put us in a place where we have no desire to better ourselves just because. We have to instill in our up and coming generations that higher education is a necessity. That they are incomplete without it and it will make them a more contributing individual to society as a whole. They can never know who they are in the appropriate timeline unless they engage the muscle of the mind so that it can afford them to be all they can be.

Is it not forward thinking and reasoning outside the common place where inventors have excelled even the inventions and innovations out of a basic need still needed to be perfected; by an educated mind.  Blueprints, mass production, the internet… was not conjured up by the simple-minded. It took know how and education to bring these things to light .

As parents and role models we have the “privilege” to imprint the future inhabitants of our world who will undoubtedly control and or play a major part in our own well-being. We being the elders who will one day depend on these/our young to maintain and facilitate our coming and goings. We should hold the responsibility gravely and ensure these future leaders are the best at what they do. We have to educate the young people and remind them that “failure to educate” is not option to die from.

In exploring this entry, I have found myself at a point of explanation. I know my writing has focused on college education. This does not mean that I do not believe in the search for knowledge in other venues and streams. I believe this standard should start from the person on the floor to the guy up in the office.

Examples:

Hairdressers: Should take some form of accounting and business administration courses so they can have a full background to make their business profitable and able to sustain. Knowing not every professional stylist is going to open their own establishment but in the event they decide to. They will be ready or equipped to tackle the endeavor.

Education by definition:: (the act or process of imparting or acquiring general knowledge, developing the powers of reasoning and judgment, and generally of preparing oneself or others intellectually for mature life.)

The definition is what we should strive for…

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© Da Absentee 2024

6 – Exhale


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I`ve been waiting and wanting
for u to engage me
i`ve waited and used control
the heat causes me to perspire

But time wont let me exhale
it goes without fail
u know I need u close
to keep it up

I need it I want it
I can’t hold it anymore
I need your touch
to exhale like before

© Dual Perspective 2011

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0 – Searching


A lonely ride…
most keep to themselves
keep what they are thinking
on the inside.

Imagine…
fine and dandy
one step to insanity
five steps from normal.

Wishing…
for good fortune
being needs to be nurtured
cared for; developed.

Clarity…
let go without a whim
unlock from within
bound in separation.

Few take this ride
tell what they have inside
can you think straight
battling through your test of faith

only time will tell
your tale
we don’t know
if evil or good will prevail…

© Da Absentee 2012

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5 – Pressure To Perform


I’m ready to hold you steady. I don’t know if i’m truly ready. For all the things that come with the thought of and the attempt to make love. Can I make my love last long? Can I make my love strong without external help? I do not currently understand exactly why men put so much emphasis on this “pressure to perform”. I believe we have plenty to worry about. I personally never understood why we have come to focus on this one aspect of being a man? We can be violent emotional creatures that can be so hurt by this 2 to 10 second moment in time. It is now money involved on stroking ego’s. Old & young do what they can to cum strong, stay long, keep that hard on. We experience ed or premature ejac. Yet we continue to look back. For everything we are going to be good at. We have to properly prepare for even it’s something you want to be exceptional at. Yes even proper gratification, love satisfaction. We can’t also have the nerve to complain about negative reactions. When we haven’t put the work in. Understand if we truly have a problem or if we have just left ourselves open to what the world has afforded us. We can truly shape our outcomes… 

© Da Absentee 2012 revised 2024

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9 – Levels


megaphone

Knock, knock knocking
faint
can you hear it, the echoes
because its hollow inside
empty and not holding
like a kite which glides

knock, knock knocking
mellow
it permeates the fleshy eardrum skin
can you hear the beat from within
adhesive to bass and strings

knock, knock knocking…
Normal
like dancing to speech
it is reserved but always in reach
I am listening
I am your student
please teach

knock, knock knocking
loud
I need you to get here
excuses at this point is nothing I want to hear
I know you know better
so do so with care

knock, knock knocking
screaming
when I see you
your dead
you hear…

© Da Absentee 2011 revised 2024

As Always…

Stay Positive!

9 – Your Course


Clox Da Absentee

Is the fault really yours
should you have seen, known all the signs
should you have recognized
that they needed more than you
more than one
more than you could have ever provided

don’t be crazy to believe
let someone tell you, It’s all your fault
is it your fault?
don`t know…
you shouldn’t care
because as of right now
that kind of thinking
will get you nowhere

they were damaged and bruised
that’s how they were received
that’s how they came to you
threats of life taking are numbing you
if that’s what they want
let them go ahead and do it already

only thing you do now
is wait, the waiting
you need more time
you need to take this into your own hands
force it down, elongate that spine

some will examine
some will say its shitty
some will call it pity
you were  trapped by vicinity
you couldn’t help
if you didn’t know how
can’t help if you don’t intervene
somehow their weak
they can’t move past hence
the past is constantly kicking their ass
if not clipped
they will attempt flight
which will be their last

You should be on a mission to cleanse
no more pretend
mind may be racing
without seeing an end
it’s a longer road than desired
but it’s yours
your monster, your friend
uncalculated unrestricted
your unconquerable end

© Da Absentee 2012

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1 – Dilemma


Clean page
blank slate
don’t know how words form
but they end up in place

this life. my life.
2 wrongs after 1 right
so i’m moving…
just in the wrong direction?

i hold onto them
they make me feel
feel like me
only feeling that holds true to me

i’ve been in my own shadow
for too long
i don’t know who I really am
pondering if i belong

they keep me sane
they give me hope
they help me withstand the fire
instead of disappear in smoke

i see light (1) – she is the future
i see dark (2) – he has the torment of the past
i see soul (3) – he will remain enlightened as his namesake
i see flesh (4) – she is “us” all

Do they see me?…
Do I see myself?…

I love them, like I love me.

©Da Absentee 2012 revised 2024

0 – Fear Of Failure


It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed.”
Theodore Roosevelt

Growing up in a household with business minded parents, I had become accustomed to disappointments, failures, bad ideas, horrible ideas and decisions. Which would cross into their everyday, family and business life. How it affected said lives and how they “kept it moving“. Yet even with so much hurdles, set by them or others. I never really saw it as a problem when it came for them to “get back on the horse“. They always learned, re-calculated and tried new ideas, looked at different versions, either updated and or reevaluated. My parents hit the drawing board with new-found vigor and was literally back at it the next available opportunity.

This is the type of thinking as a people we need and should make a constant requirement in our lives. We should have inherited what our fore fathers had without even thinking. Trail-blazers, explorers, immigrants who were not forced to be here the ones who set out across the oceans and continents to change their circumstances. It’s these people the ones before us; where “failure is not an option“.

My parents were always trying to guess or understand what the people wanted, before they remembered what they wanted, and didn’t know they wanted. They gave customers more choices than needed, which lead the people to decide to purchase (with a little encouragement of course). Through it all there were losses, then there were gains… I never really saw my parents let deterrents set them back or stop them dead in their tracks. The mission was always to get people in the door and to let them decide freely to spend their money. The saying in the shop was “Ok… we didn’t get it with THIS; let’s try to get them with THAT.”

In the world of today there are so many things we can fear as a people. We have been hit with obstacles all along the way from slavery, to racism, to poverty. All races are subject to adversity. The real death to us all (in my opinion) is “the fear of failure” or is it “the fear of success”. However you look at it; it’s the same thing. We use the same things to classify if we go after an undertaking. This simple way of thinking is one of our biggest setbacks from progress. We must be willing to react to what is thrown our way by life and circumstance and overcome. We must believe in ourselves. To know that we are capable and can be a presence, a force and a model for people to look at for inspiration.

Why do we let things, emotions and people deter us? Do we not believe in ourselves? Does the fear of someone’s opinion hold that much significance, or carry that much weight that we let it dictate how we operate? Is there something wrong with the way we perceive ourselves? Do we know what we want or where we want to be? How can we reach our full potential? What is wrong with succeeding? Do we really understand success?

Do we comprehend that without failures along the way to a goal; that we can never really learn, grow and succeed!

The only evaluation that should hold some gravity is “self evaluations” and the ones that help us learn positively; not in the opposite direction. We have been brought up in a society, that over and over again “That will never work” or “I told you so“. We as a people need a mindset and culture change. The determination and belief in oneself should be that no matter what “where there is a will; there is a way“.

We can not simply let someone just like us; hand us opinions, thoughts and reactions that influence our decisions, helps us make excuses and act as if we have electric fences to keep ourselves locked in.

Message I have:

Try; if you don’t succeed
try again
learn from mistakes,
grow from within.
Don’t let fear block your dreams,
don’t let what anyone has to say
prevent you from the win!

– Da Absentee –

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Stay Positive!

0 – Thoughts – 21


I don’t actually know when i hit rock bottom
i do know as the days go by
it seems that i hit it more often
it hits like the pit in my stomach
the clog of my throat
no blood pressure passing through my heart
the lost of life
I feels like pieces are ready to explode
grasping at air
Talking about suppressing
i find my therapy stressing, unrelenting, depressing
anxiety fleshing a quandary
i don’t even know if I’m dying
i never let things take me to an edge
a duck in water with every and all things
let it all run off my back
we can’t afford the extra weight
the hate, the despair
let it all become displaced 
but
no traveling, at this point 
nothing can’t take me somewhere
i’m trying to get far away
From this place that leads nowhere…

©️ Da Absentee 2013 revised 2024

2 – We Should Be


I`m confused; misplaced the love wrapped up in you
Can it be used
Even salvaged

Everything can be going right then we make a left
And we wrong
Possibly summed up in a sappy, silly love song
Replaced by everyday existence
Trial, tribulation.
Trouble and a dollar

I know you hurt
I see you cry
Even tho no tears are shed
I see it in your eyes
Your scared and its dark outside
The wheels will turn to get us out of there.
Out of here…

Despair…

Get us somewhere, someplace
We should be.
A tad more vibrant
A drop more bold
Someplace where our union can focus and hold
Become an affirmation for others to see example of real

And fantasy…

© Da Absentee 2012

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Every couple has their disagreements. Even in adverse times we all should have the goal to be better in everything we do or are a part of. We all want and deserve the best.

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2 – Getting Nowhere


On being a mother;

i shelter and protect, put there needs first

i lose myself and i lose respect.

this is how i became me

i am alone

so where has it gotten me

On being a wife

i gave him all of my life

i am a shadow of my former self

and he dares to tell me

i am not myself

this is how i became me

i am support

but where has it gotten me

On being a friend

i encourage and share my secrets with them

i lose trust and they unbalance my zen

and they say i act like

i am better than them

this is how i became me

i am therapist

but where has it gotten me

On being a co-worker

i work hard and play for the team

i get stepped on and passed over

i am depressed and never listened to

this is how i became me

i am angry

but where has it gotten me

On being me

I give the world a part of me

but i am shunned

and questioned, never given a second look

yet i give life, i give love

i think i am the lady, i am suppose to be

quiet, strong and forgiving

but with all this

this is how i became me

i am an unhappy me

but where has it gotten me?

©️Da Absentee 2011 revised 2024

“Perspective Change”

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6 – Clouds & Smiles


LYRIC

First ray of light peering  through dark skies

A small smile from a familiar face

The pitter patter of tiny feet 

racing for a warm embrace

A light moment between friends

after a long, hard day.

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ABSENTEE

The first touch of rain falling from that same dark sky

thunder musical score. 

Reminds me of grinning eons ago. 

Running of teenage feet attempting to beat the clouds pour. 

We should have been home hours ago…instead of taking time to explore.

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©️ Dual Perspective 2024

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Stay Positive!