“We can only love them for who they are… Not for who we want them to be…”
-Da Absentee-
0 – Scribbles – 28
Author Archives: Da Absentee
2 – Thoughts – 24
I’m really
Really
trying to ground myself in reality
Keep telling me
asking me
whats wrong with me
Im solid, im straight
What I need
what I believe is 2 different things
I need my own peace.
What I believe
We shouldn’t fall apart because of material
But material is what i need
to continue to provide the cereal
The material is what provides the shelter
Material keeps the kids in school
Keep this internet and the cable
you can’t sit in this house without on.
It keeps the car note paid
Keeps the car on the road
sorry if
I’m caught up in the material thread
I’m sorry
if it’s the only thing that’s filling my head
Bond and strength
At this rate
I might as well be dead…
© Da Absentee 2015 revised 2024
As Always…
Stay Positive!
6 – She’s Beautiful
Yes I am
An identity all my own.
I am X & Y
at the same time
Boxed by the ignorant,
shallow minded and feeble
I have no self-esteem issues
Nothing wrong with me
Nothing wrong with the collection of things
I call “self”
self-concept
Nothing askew with my personality
faults are in my environment
I can
I will
rule the world
Positive
Guide to the new century
The world is in its place
where it needs to be
Revolving around me
They say I lost my “voice”
To attract the boys
Lost & misplaced myself
to gain appeal
Stifling my opinions, interests & self worth
We know
I know
esteem grows as I grow
I am far from fragile
Not conflicted
I am not fraud
Who dares to say “I… am worthless”
I am not ambivalent
I have a higher moral resolve than all these boys
more ethical
I can express my opinions
I share what I am thinking
Express what’s important to me
Essential to the blueprint of the future
Humankind
Share what’s on my mind
I can be the cause of wars
Transformed into a muse
Suffered the timeless abuse
With a voice stronger than some
Initial instinctual protection
I own my intelligence
Dabble in appearance
That man can not produce
What I speak becomes truth
One day
They will look and say…
She’s beautiful…
© Da Absentee 2015
As Always…
Stay Positive!
9 – Thoughts – 25
Life is constantly always something new
New hurdle or obstacle
New blemish or spot
New fork or path
Always a new place to go
We can never expect the smooth
Always looking or living in the rough
The things that escape or get away from us…
© Da Absentee 2015 revised 2024
As Always…
Stay Positive!
9 – Thoughts – 26
It all passes. The realization of it all. This life is a walking, living contradiction battle. A duality lesson. Everything is real & fake at the same time. So…
I take this ride every now and then. When I close my eyes momentarily, I steal moments. Stealing moments from the reality I have constructed; stealing moments from everything as they steal my moments…
We do this dance of real & fake. Tit for tat. I hit you, you hit me back. Just enough, insuring that we are not lost. I’m pretty sure I have paid some piper. All that he is owed. He has given all he could show…
Doing this gives unusual discomfort. What should be the use of my time?…
I claim I am man. I claim I am who I am…
Yet still…
I claim to be so much more. I want…
I need…
So much more than before…
© Da Absentee 2015 revised 2024
As Always…
Stay Positive!
2 – Golden
Silent behind 4 walls
sunrise, cool night breeze lingers in the window.
eventful day, schedule shows
first
back & forth silhouettes erode
breakfast, clean and launder clothes
buttery eggs with toast on salty lips
days off
no face
no clock ticks
work indoors as the day glows
some skin exposed.
Turning
transition clears
turns
you turn me…
we clean
every which way
reflection cleaner to class the day
you’re in solid form
almost norm
fluff all the right places
just my height
just my taste
you know you just my shape
fruit salad
your just my plate
wait…
landscape…
wax. polish. spit. shine.
with a slow song written all over your face
back to the salad
green tart grapes
easy music listening
dishes sparkling
shot-in gin
on a lazy day
stirred not shake-in
regular wash
hardly starched
don’t need you done up
just lightly dressed
sandals, panties, bra, worn sundress
not going nowhere so you can skip the rest
hints and quips
never speech
silent but understood
bending. sweeping. standing on feet.
I just stare…
everything else ..
obsolete
smell of fresh clean laundry fills the air
kid searching…
find them nowhere
just me & you
you & me
I & you
you & I
lovely how the time turtles by
quick snack
20 minute adult nap
barter nick knacks
warm popsicle for a hot snatch
then calibrate the rest of the day
just to relax.
sun floats down
while the night falls
and finally we drift
silent
behind 4 walls…
Da Absentee © 2011
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When I wrote this, I was in the middle of a mini vacation where it so happen that the wife and I were able to spend the day alone. without the kids “enjoying ourselves”.
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6 – She’s Beautiful – update
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As Always…
Stay Positive!
0 – Realization
⬇️To remember who i am
My past has shown me a future
Finding myself in a process
I’m torn
It’s not settling right
Good & evil
My innards not properly lit
Too many shadows
Too many unfinished walls
Concrete pits
Shaky foundation
Unstable
In one too many directions
I’m lost in it
The unsettling
It doesn’t sit right
Haunted by my life
I can tell it’s gone
I know
I didn’t love it right
(now read line by line bottom to top)⬆️
© Da Absentee 2015 revised 2024
The words on this one just lays out nicely both ways… (this is not a palindrome)
As Always…
Stay Positive!
9 – Thoughts – 27
Everytime. I think about this life
It shouldn’t work that way
It shouldn’t work this way
Still here but bitter. all the time
Here with mine (decisions)
Live with mine (decisions)
Everytime. I tell myself.
Im human.
Make good ones make bad ones (decisions)
Pulled myself thru my-self made hell
This life I pieces / placed together
Everytime.
I’m trying to figure this life out
Figure what I am about…
It’s truly time…
© Da Absentee 2015 revised 2024
As Always…
Stay Positive!
0 – Welcoming The End
I have grown or lived to my potential. ✨
As I am leaving this life; In my last moments I think about the world and what it has become.
I think of the things my elders have said and no matter how much I tried to ignore what they said.
I find myself quoting what they said. 🤦♂️
I think of my life. The good and bad and what it cost me to live the way I did.
The world has become so off track with what we as humans really need.
I am dying, the world is dying.
I already know that everything must come to an end, even me.
As I fade and enter eternal sleep…
©️Da Absentee 2024
⚱️ I have never feared death and never understood the desire to avoid it. It has always been clear to me that we all will face death, something beyond our control and inevitable for everyone. There are no exceptions, so why do some of us dread it?
As Always…
Stay Positive!
✨✨
0 – Slipping Away
Grown to a limit
Til out of sight
Disappointment
Cricket speaks; nothing comes cheap
Even if you don’t agree
Your story; my story is complete
We are lost
World no longer at our feet
Listen to it
The heartbeat
Slowing every minute
Sooner no later
Stops… fades
Pre-planned to disappear
Disperse, deceased, gone
No more together
No more alone
No more you or me
Peace…
Tranquility
© Da Absentee 2011 revised 2024
As Always…
Stay Positive!
2 – Haven’t Succeeded
I can’t talk to you…
Not for not; wanting to talk to you
Not for wanting to ignore you
It’s how much I have disappointed you.
What can I say that would make up…
The heartache; The headache. I caused.
I believe; I deserve your love
I haven’t shown you; I deserve your love.
What can I do to show you…
I know how to love you right…
I’m sorry…
I know this has not been easy.
The stress; the ups and downs.
Worrying about the bills. Worrying about this life.
Worrying about me.
Time not spending time with you.
I just haven’t.
Why?
I really don’t know why. I try and plan. Something comes up.
Am I making excuses with this about this life…
This life just is.
You deserve more than something small.
I couldn’t even give you that.
You don’t; we don’t need all of that
I just want it to be sincere
Truth & Simple & Rare
I thought I could be the man you needed.
It’s all in that last line…
Even though it’s just that…
I haven’t succeeded…
© Da Absentee 2015 revised 2024
As Always…
Stay Positive!
0 – Thoughts – 28
There is remorse in having to admit
The kinks in your armor are signs of weakness
Spilling out from your soul
Something hurtful to confess, A spot of soft flesh.
Putting everything on the line, putting “you” out in the open
You tell yourself these are riddles; that should be left unspoken.
Can you live with not being you. Truly…
Another ism or thing for the pile added to your self interrogation
On the subject or the mystery…
“Who Should I Be?..”
© Da Absentee 2015 revised 2024
As Always…
Stay Positive!
0 – Scribbles – 3
“Let the world around you be your inspiration. After all it is yours.”
-Da Absentee-
4 – Scribbles – 29
Aim to fall in love with their soul. That way; they will always be sexy…
– Da Absentee –
9 – Scribbles – 30
How do I fix what’s broken…
When it’s my essence that causes the breaks…
0 – In Those Dark Moments
Remember…
I Love You…
I Will Always Love You..
As Always…
Stay Positive…
That Is All…
0 – Scribbles – 31
i believe in being all in..
so i go all in..
i expect what i put in..
To be returned…
0 – Scribbles – 12
“Even if you walk in darkness, you can still walk with light. Fight to never let it consume you. Never let that darkness put out your light.” -Da Absentee-
5 – Speaking In Code
I understand when you start speaking in code…
“What! … You did this to me…”
That’s you blaming me for making you the biggest freak you could be.
“You want some a your liquor tonight”
You want me to go deep, spank you and last all night.
“I want you to make love to me”
No hard fucking… You want me to finger you to make you cum.
You need me to play in dat pussy; like someone told me to get it done… and to finish…
you have, to have me on top looking in your eyes and hitting it slow… Until i let go.
“We need to go to a hotel”
You wanna get some good fucking in, so after we finish just a simple rub of my fingers can make you cum again…
“I wanna taste you”
Your gunna suck my dick like you making love to it.
“It don’t stay on anyway”
That’s you asking me why i buy you lingerie…
“I`m ready to do my favorite”
You want me to put it in your ass… That’s just your low-key way to ask!
“Oh God”
Your about to peak…
“Da. Da. Da…. Da”
You forgot how to speak…
“Oh Shit!”
Damn… that’s good
“Damn… That`s good”
Does really mean, Damn… That`s good.
“Fuck”
Your about tapped out…
I just felt like sharing…😍🥰😘
© Da Absentee 2010 revised 2024
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As Always…
Stay Positive!
