“Evolution”


I see the growth in me

I feel the growth in me

I see and feel the need…

to keep this growth with me
life moves at such a pace 

Its frigid yet fast paced

Depressing and succession based

Upsets with love and lusts

Entombed; yet flower laced
Im doing things different

Really feeling the time difference

Seeing my time different
Living and dying 

same instant, Same movement

Expansion with confinement

Responsibilities bring duress

Animation supports transition

From simple to complex…

© Da Absentee 2016
“As Always…. Stay Positive!”

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Crabs In A Bucket


When a single crab is put into a lidless bucket, they surely can and will escape. However, when more than one share a bucket, none can get out. If one crab elevates themself above all, the others will grab this crab and drag’em back down to share the mutual fate of the rest of the group.

Often used to describe social situations where one person is trying to better themself and others in the community attempt to pull them back down.

As a people we see this all too often. It can be applied to so many areas of life. Instead of trying to build each other up we constantly pull and put each other down. Instead of using our experiences and knowledge to help be a footing to help others, so that they can get a foot; we shoot them in foot!

The modern day syndrome of negativity where we always hate and discourage one another is just staggering. Friends envy friends, family plotting against family. In all truth family members are probably the most guilty of the ‘crab mentality’. The reason being they are usually the closest to you, have more access to you and will be the first to see any progress on a small or larger scale. Which they will be ready to judge, poke and dis-member.

In the work place we do not work as a cohesive unit, we steal ideas, act as whistleblowers and discourage forward thinking simply because our thinking is that we should be better off than a co-worker. This then leads to ‘double work’ less productivity, less morale and quality of work then falters.

I can safely say that as a society especially in the black community we have inadvertently set up a standard “hate policy”. That any and everything that is not set with the ‘norm’ or is not aligned with our way of thinking and understanding that “If it is not for us. Then it must be against us.”

I believe that everyone with reasonably decent parenting in their lives would have been told at one point or another that it was “ok, to share” . Something in-stilled so early in life should have had a better hold in our core way of thinking because it is (I think) the simplest way of thinking to defeat ‘crab mentality’.

We come to points in our lives where sometimes we have to be that ‘co-star’. We have to fight the urge and longing to be the ones in the limelight. We have to become the person on the side doing the work and doing more, the behind the scenes that never gets the proper credit . These are the type of people, the inspirations, the muses and the supports who do more by playing their position for the better good.

We have become ok with being opposites and pulling in the other direction. we have set up a constant negative. That women must sleep around to get ahead. Everyone is looking for the quick buck, that no one wants to work hard anymore or he must be selling drugs way of thinking.

Who is to blame? We only have ourselves to blame.

We as black people should attempt to be a part of the ‘Talented Tenth’ where we help each other progress, set goals to improve ourselves which in turn, improve our surroundings which will improve others around us.

We need to strive to be a platform to help each other up and propel from. So that when one of us arrives to a new level, we always turn around and bring the ones we have surpassed. That the cycle of help, support, encouragement and goodwill continues on…

“Haven’t Succeeded”


I can’t talk to you…

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Not for not wanting to talk to you 
Not for wanting to ignore you
It’s because of how much I have disappointed you.

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What can I say that would make up…
the heartache 
The headache… 
I caused. 

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I believe 
I deserve your love 
I haven’t shown you 
I deserve it.  

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what can I do to show you …
I know how to love you right
I’m sorry…

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I know this has not been easy. 
The stress. 
The ups and downs. 
Worrying about the bills 
Worrying about this life
worrying about me. 
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asking me to spend time with you 
I haven’t.
Why 
I really don’t know why. 
I try and plan. Then something always comes up. 

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Am I making excuses 
but this life…
it just is…
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you deserve more than something small. 
can’t even give you that. 
Some grand gesture 
You don’t …
We don’t need all of that
I just want it to be sincere
Truth
Simple

I thought I could be the man you needed. 

It’s all in that last line…
Even though its just that…

I haven’t succeeded…
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© Da Absentee 2015

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As Always…

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Stay Positive!

“We Should Be”


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I`m confused; misplaced the love wrapped up in you
Can it be used
Even salvaged

Everything can be going right then we make a left
And we wrong
Possibly summed up in a sappy, silly love song
Replaced by everyday existence
Trial, tribulation.
Trouble and a dollar

I know you hurt
I see you cry
Even tho no tears are shed
I see it in your eyes
Your scared and its dark outside
The wheels will turn to get us out of there.
Out of here…

Despair…

Get us somewhere, someplace
We should be.
A tad more vibrant
A drop more bold
Someplace where our union can focus and hold
Become an affirmation for others to see example of real

And fantasy…

© Da Absentee 2012

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This is a re-write of another poem which I re-visited. So its new & improved.

Every couple has their disagreements. Even in adverse times we all should have the goal to be better in everything we do or are a part of. We all want and deserve the best.

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As Always…

Stay Positive!